dont like people, people dont like me

[smason]

I get anxiety when talking to people or am around them. I cant even look people in the face. Keeping eye contact is nearly imposible. I was physicaly and emotionaly abused as a child, i wasnt wanted during pregnancy, Ive been from home to home. My dad is just now coming around in my life as is my mother. I cant seem to talk to people. I dont know what to say, get nervouse, go blank, lose all thought, feel brain dead kinda and say dumb things. I think it makes people not like me and it certainly makes me not like people (dont like myself b/c of this). Why do I do this and what can I do? I try to throw myself out there and just talk to people and be around them, i feel better at the moment but get such anxiety and reluctance to do it shortly after. One more thing to mention, I was at home alone from 7 years old to 12. No friends, only TV. Also no friends in school, picked on of course and have bad memory so I didnt do well academicaly either. Thank you for taking time!

[socantbebother]

hey did you go and speak to doc about this? it might help you?
i'm like that as well, i can't even look at people in the eye why chatting to them or i look at them then look away or just talk to them and not looking at them at all. i still don't know why i'm like that. i have lost alot of friends and no contacts to anyone else. alot of my times i stayed at home and watch tv until i fell asleep, during the weekend when everyone is out having fun i'm still at home watching tv. I feel that nobody wants to speak to me or being friends with me but is it really true that nobody wanna be friends with people like us? maybe is us that is not giving a chance to anyone being friends with us. maybe is cos we not letting people getting close to us incase we end up getting hurt in some way? today i still not sure why and can't seems to find the answers but we have to try our best no matter what.

when your feeling down you can always talk to us here, we are happy to help each other

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[fuzzy882]

That's Ok, you can talk to us all you want and you dont even have to look at us.