hi guys,
im a cardiophobiac, all started in 2014 when I felt my very first pvcs. I got checked over promptly. had the usual echocardiogram, treadmill test, ekg, and weekend holter monitoring. all checked out great. the holter revealed 5 ectopics during day 1 and on day 2 there were none! pretty damn good yep I know. the only other things seen were dropped beats, known as 'sinus pauses' while I was asleep or whatever it was. I was told not too worry and continue my exercise regime.
I did just that, haven't dropped dead yet of course, but since them tests, I have looked far too much into heart disease in the young now. reading endless articles, stories, cited journals, and research control group studies. I quickly found fabrice Muambas situation, Patrick ekengs and a few others about sudden death after routine cardio checks.
this obviously got me really worried again. almost not believing the tests id had! life went on, so did my pvcs, and sometimes I would feel them after exercising, or when exercising. very infrequently and sporadic. I've now developed a fear of anything that raises my heart rate. I really am depressed in life. everything pretty much requires movement or quick sudden changes in activity ( walking into work, walking upstairs, sexual activity, cleaning the car and so on ) yet I am so hesitant to do any of them.
I feel the need to really have a cardiac mri scan to see if I have any scarring or fatty tissue that isn't being read on the usual tests. anyone out there with any experience?
where can I turn too? my doctors has given me sertraline 50mgs to try as it all got me very suicidal and I need something to take away the mental pain and torture, as such.