Help ?

[jack301]

Im nearly 19 years old, I want to make an appointment with the doctor but cant because im to scared to go to the doctors and dont know why, i want help but i cant get on buses or travel for it, I was wondering where i can seek help and dont have to leave my house basically. I have anxiety and depression. Im constantly scared and so scared its unatural and i dont know what im scared of, i worry so much that i think one day it is going to kill me, if i had a conflict or argument with some one i would worry about it for weeks months and it will make me really down and upset, i would also hide in my room until everything clears up and feeel shaky and depressed, i find it hard to get out of bed atall unless there is money involved im sort of happy when i get money but seem to spend it on rubbish and other people, them when the moneys gone i feel down,if im in a rtoom with lots of people or out in town say, i get really shaky and feel asthough im going to wee myself so i put my hands down my pants to check that i havent thats one reason i dont go out, when im walking down the road i feel as though people in cars going past are laughing at me because i have weed myself but never have done before,so then i get paronoidi feel like people walking past me are laughing at me, also if i see two people whispering or talking slyly to eacvhother i feel as though they are saying nasty things about me or planning something, i feel asthough im really hard and put across a hard face but the truth is im scared of everything these days, im fed up of somewhat pretending im something im not but its just me now, i dont really show mental health problems its all in my head and personal thats why alot of people dont take it serious but my life is slowly falling apart and the honest truth is i think about heaven alot and hope that its real incase i ever go but i also get scared about suicide incase my mum kileed herself if i did it or it ruined everyones lifes thats all that stops me, the only time i feel better if when it is storming and raining heavy no matter what time it is i always put my coat on and go for a walk and get soaked i love the dark and rain maybe because no one can see me i dont know ? im scared because maybe one day i wont be even able to leave the house because thats how its getting, i know people are going to say go to a&e but its not an option as i cant sit in there and im scared of going incase they think im lieing or just send me home then ill feel worse because ill think theres nothing wrong with me im stupid but deep down i know that im not well atall , Thankyou all for reading and any help atall will be honestly much appreciated, as i have wrote on here before and the responses were not much of an help, Thanks

[birdie0907]

Definitely see doc. You might ask why you are on this med risp and ask if you are bipolar or schizophrenic since wikipedia says it is for those conditions.

[birdie0907]

Is it a MD or a psychiatrist who you are seeing? You mention your old doctor so was he a psychiatrist?

[jack301]

I have been living of what i got at my old doctors for about a month , but im going to go and see the new doctor tomorrow for some more, what do you think i should do birdie ? Thankyou

[birdie0907]

I don't know anything about risp but wikipedia says it is for bp or schizophrenia so that is why I asked. Who prescribes it for you now? You must be seeing a professional for refills.

[jack301]

i was getting treated for being low in mood i got out on appeal to my nearest relative my dad had to get released within 72 hours

[jack301]

All the symptoms at the top. havent been diagnosed but in 2009 i went from prison to hospital the gardner unit in prestwich hospital, then i come out and was working with emerge young persons mental health when i was 17 they said i had autistic trates, and gave me rispiridrone, i have never been diagnosed thats the problem, wouldnt know where to start

[birdie0907]

How long have you been on the Celexa and risp?
I presume you have received a clinical diagnosis if you are prescribed rispiridrone. Was it BP, schizophrenia?

[jack301]

Oh sorry forgot to mention that i take 2mg of rispiridrone a day and 20mg of citaloprame

[anxiety860]

FYI- I did get on medication and it has helped me A LOT! along with self talk and positive thinking. If you want to try medication then give it a try, but remember many SSRI's can take 6-8 weeks to fully start working. I'm not telling you that you should be on meds, just giving you my expierence.

[anxiety860]

Could be a mix of anxiety/depression. For many people they go hand in hand.  Not with everybody though..  Try to keep busy and get out of bed.  Keeping busy will help you.  But..The doctor will likely suggest going to some kind of talk therapy, and discuss medication options with you.  They of course will NOT make you take any meds.  From my experience they asked me.. Do you want to try meds?. They then discussed different medication options.  This is just what happened to me.  I told them how I was feeling, she suggested talk therapy, and asked if I wanted to get on medication.  Same could go for you, but I still suggest seeing a doctor and discussing how you are feeling. Especially if this has been going on for awhile and is not getting better.

[jack301]

Thankyou, what do you think it is from your own experience ? and what do you think the doctor will do, id rather hear the truth thanks anxiety 860

[anxiety860]

I advise you to go to your primary care doctor right away before it gets worse.  I realize you say you have a hard time traveling, but the sooner you get the help the sooner you can get better, and for me personally going and finding a good doctor was my first and best step.  Go see your doctor, discuss all of this with them and you guys can decide where your next step will be.  Getting your anxiety under control is a journey for sure, but you can get better.  Please go see your doctor before things get worse.  Maybe schedule a phone apt if you TRULY cannot leave your house. or e-mail them.   Hope I was some help to you.