Redirecting Negative Energy: Reasons to Live?

[ILADVOCATE]

I do notice people sometimes experience suicidal ideations (can't say I am immune) and of course at that time the best thing to do is speak to your psychiatrist immediately. But if they just disrupt your moods or train of thought from time to time and not your whole life besides speaking to your psychiatrist I've found for myself one excellent way to redirect is to post one reason you want to live and why life is worth living, family, friends, goals, etc. and then keep going from there. Since its common to experience this, I'd be interested if people could just post one positive reason they want to live and why life is worth living even if they sometimes feel otherwise. Think about it.

[Delusion]

Quite the opposite i would infact love to see a psychaitrist for meds... its my right to try them to see if they have any effect on me because all i currently get is patronising life style advice like going to bed earlier and trying to establish a sleep pattern and its like 2 decades dont you think ive tried this!!! I just get told drugs are evil and they wont solve anything but its my right to see this for myself because im not recieveing councilling or CBT or ECT so they cant even attack back at me with the ''only after other treatments have been tried'' argument because im not allowed to try anything. How different is healthcare in Ireland compared to here in England? Im not sure which half you come from.

[irishwriter]

i live in ireland and am just lucky to have found a really decent, kind pdoc who is generally available on phone whenever i need him. i spent many years with different psychologists and pdocs before i found him. i was also lucky for twelve years, ten years ago before i moved that i had an excellent gp who was also available any time to talk to if needed and still is v. understanding when i call him even though i haven't been his patient in so long. my tdoc for the last six years has been v. supportive but she has now retired so am in a bit of a quandary as to whether to find a new one and have to start from beginning again. i hope you both get to find a good pdoc who doesn't just dispense meds although my sister who lives in usa has similar arrangement, just sees pdoc for meds but has a psychologist for therapy. it sounds like a unsatisfactory arrangement to me.

[ILADVOCATE]

Yes that makes sense. My psychopharmocologist functions as a talk therapist as well. He didn't always. I just got sick of him and the talk therapist playing what they called "telephone tag". He still does that with the neurologist but those are two different disabilities so its needed and anyway they work closely together. I just got sick of the talk therapist calling him and saying "he can't tolerate this medication". I felt that it was worth cutting out the middle man. That stopped years ago. For most people who respond well to known medications the idea of having a seperate talk therapist does make sense though.
   I haven't ranted in years. I do tend to recieve them from other people in my life but it makes me feel better about myself to tone them down and them as well. I have been trying to back off as regards other people's recovery but its nice to know aside from the same people everyone else has to answer as regards the law and of course my psychopharmocologist that I don't have authority figures in my life telling me how to conduct my business. It should have happenned at age 18 I'm just glad it happenned and in a manner that made them take a new approach to life.

[LetaB]

  I know you don't mean to imply that my trouble with connecting to a psychiatrist is because I am treating them rudely - but it sounded that way. My psychiatrist made it very clear to me at the outset that he was not a psychologist and he didn't have time to listen to my woes. He is there to dispense medications. I go there with a clear idea of what meds I've taken already and what are my alternatives. I save ranting for therapists whom I don't see.

[ILADVOCATE]

To be honest I wasn't always working so closely with my provider. It was a matter of mutual trust and I had to take the first step. The psychopharmocologist I see was my choice which is essential (I know not all people have that option, many people including in the U.S. have to go to a clinic and see a different provider each time). But before recovery I used to spend the whole time ranting. It really did burn them out. Now I work with them on a different level but I had to stop seeing them as the opposition. I well respect that people like to be treated like human beings but so do providers. I know part of that decision was my recovery because when I was paranoid I saw any treatment providers as the opposition. But part of it was a sense of self respect. And when you have a sense of self respect you tend to get treated better. I think that applies to all of society.

[Delusion]

Yep thats pretty much what its like for me.. the last two actual psychaitrists ive seen have done nothing but argue and threaten me with the consequences of wasting their time and making accusations about me supposidly lieing to them at every point. A thing that pisses me off is they say if you ever need to talk to me in a emergency if your feeling suicidal call me on this number ill answer if im not with a client or im not on a break and we only run 9-5... its pretty **** most people need help at the times the rest of the world is asleep.