Daisy in final stage

[KrissyM87]

About three weeks ago found out my best friends numbers were off the charts. First vet suggested euthanasia, second gave me some options. I have been researching like crazy and trying everything possible, hollistic and prescribed by the vet. My Daisy, who will be 17 in April has been fighting hard. We have been doing SB fluids twice daily at home, along with many other things around the clock. I allowed my hopes to get to high. She has been so happy and alert, earing again (though still reluctantly) then the last couple days has started to refuse food again. Ive bought every option available and cooked many other options, she just won't eat it. She still keeps sniffing around looking for "junk" food dropped by my little ones. Today she stole a doughnut! Why would she be so drawn to eat junk food? I'm considering adding sugar to her food even though i know it is bad for her. I feel i have nothing to lose. She is waisting away and i can't watch her starve to death.

Another question. Does anyone have some great tips for giving the sb fluids? She is starting to fight me and it's breaking my heart, lately she is jerking around so much i end up having to stab her multiple times. I cannot keep doing this! I know if i stop the fluids she will get worse quickly but am not ready for that decision. I don't want to.be selfish and keep making her fight but i don't want to give up too soon as she is so happy agin, following me around again. How can i ever decide when she has had enough? This emotional roller coaster is killing me. I have had daisy since i was 11! She got me through soooo many hard times, now it is my turn but i feel i am not being strong enough for her. Please help

we are retesting her bloodwork tomorrow and im overly anxious. Her numbers about three weeks ago were crazy high. Bun off the charts >180  creatine 6.5  phoshporus 16 something. (she is sleeping on me or id go grab tge paper for reference)

Thanks for the support, no one in my life can understand right now, so im thankful to have found this group!

[tonyb286]

Hi. No, you don't sound crazy in the slightest ... not to us. We understand. Many of us have been through this ourselves, some of us more than once. The pain is very real, the sadness relentless. It is grief in its rawest form. I have said this many times and, for me, it is "as it is" ... I have missed my dogs that have passed more than some friends or family. The bond between a special companion and its owner is unique, deep and wholehearted.

Daisy was your companion. Your closest friend. She shared her life with you and yours with her. The loss you are feeling now will eventually subside, but you will never be without her, because she has survives in the safest places in the world - your heart and memories.

Ignore what others might say. They don't understand and probably never will. Personally, I pity them, because they are missing out on a relationship that is so rewarding.

Come back and talk whenever you feel the need. We are here for you.

Tony

[KrissyM87]

Thank u all for your comments. I am not so good right now, but i really appreciate the support. Reading your experiences and memories helps me so much. My Daisy was the most special person i will ever have in my life . She got me through the darkest times of my life. Protected me from my mother growing up. I know this is a lot to share but i feel like sharing just how amazing she was. She was my protector, comforter and best friend. I know she was holding on for me, and suffering for it.

She had two horrible nights in a row but during the day would get better. I knew sat night that i wasn't going to let her go through another night of misery but it was still so hard to get to the vet sunday. I really thought she would perk up at the vet, like every other time (we were even there on fri and she did) but sun was different. It was the opposite. She let me know it was the right decision, she completely let go. I wasn't sure she was even going to make it to get the injection. Im thankful for her guidance, it makes this backlash of guilt more bearable.

I hate how other people don't get it. They think you should be bouncing back the next day or two at the most, right?! I mean she was only a dog....i feel like telling people i lost my sister or child or something so they can understand and just leave me alone. My family actually had the nerve to act surprised that i took monday off of work. Noy to mention i an a groomer and that makes it all the harder. So i just really appreciate you guys. Being able to come here and not have to put on a happy face, just let it all out is helpful.

Earl, i really hope that i have a dream or vision myself. In fact i hope she enters my dreams every night, at least ill get to see her again. I do imagine her running free and happy and strong. I hope one day we will be reunited, i think that's the only way I can get through this. Thank you all for listening. Im going through so many emotions right now it would really suck without having anyone who has been there. Anger, guilt, sadness, in an endless cycle every moment. Whew, i prolly sound crazy. Hope not. But maybe i am right now, and that's ok i guess

[DogBlog]

I'm so very sorry and know so well that there are no words of comfort right now.  My tears are flowing knowing exactly what you are going through.  My Sammie was 17 years old.....such a big part of my life.  Even though it's been seven months, I still have days I cry.

Please know you did the right, most unselfish thing for her.  She is able to stand on her own, run like a puppy and be free of pain......she is in good company with all our furry babies.

Message when you can and let us know how you are.  I found this group to be my ultimate source of comfort.  I knew they understood.

My best,
Charlene

[Earlsteffie]

Your comment to Krissy "Run Free Daisy", reminded me of something. I'm not a very religious person, but, I'd like to share this.

Two days after I said Goodbye to Steffie, I had a dream, but, this wasn't anything like a 'Dream'......it was totally realistic and you don't forget any part of it:

I was in my shop sitting in a chair working on something and I caught a glimpse of something entering the doorway....it was Steffie. She was literally skin and bones but she had this huge happy smile and her tail was going a mile a second, as she trotted up to me. I said,..."Steffie! How could you be here, as I bent down to give her ice cold body a Big Hug." Then, I woke up.

Don't know how many encounter such a realistic and memorable situation as such, but, it was obvious that she was released and 'Running Free'.

Earl

[Earlsteffie]

Hi  Krissy, I'm truly sorry. Theres no such thing as 'Getting Over It' or 'Letting Go', you now have to 'Adjust'. It will be an 'Hour by Hour', 'Day by Day' ordeal. The main thing, You did the 'Right Thing' at the 'Right Time'.

At least you know you are among Friends here that 'Truly' 'Understand'. I know I'm at home here, and that counts for a lot.

My thoughts are with you.

Earl

[tonyb286]

Hello. I'm so very sorry. I think you did the right thing, for Daisy. I know it wasn't the right thing for you, because it hurts so much, but you did the most unselfish thing any dog owner can do. This is the hardest of all our responsibilities as dog owners ... to prevent unnecessary suffering. My thoughts are with you today and in the days and weeks that will follow. Come back and chat when you are able.

Run free Daisy.

Tony