Daisy in final stage

[KrissyM87]

About three weeks ago found out my best friends numbers were off the charts. First vet suggested euthanasia, second gave me some options. I have been researching like crazy and trying everything possible, hollistic and prescribed by the vet. My Daisy, who will be 17 in April has been fighting hard. We have been doing SB fluids twice daily at home, along with many other things around the clock. I allowed my hopes to get to high. She has been so happy and alert, earing again (though still reluctantly) then the last couple days has started to refuse food again. Ive bought every option available and cooked many other options, she just won't eat it. She still keeps sniffing around looking for "junk" food dropped by my little ones. Today she stole a doughnut! Why would she be so drawn to eat junk food? I'm considering adding sugar to her food even though i know it is bad for her. I feel i have nothing to lose. She is waisting away and i can't watch her starve to death.

Another question. Does anyone have some great tips for giving the sb fluids? She is starting to fight me and it's breaking my heart, lately she is jerking around so much i end up having to stab her multiple times. I cannot keep doing this! I know if i stop the fluids she will get worse quickly but am not ready for that decision. I don't want to.be selfish and keep making her fight but i don't want to give up too soon as she is so happy agin, following me around again. How can i ever decide when she has had enough? This emotional roller coaster is killing me. I have had daisy since i was 11! She got me through soooo many hard times, now it is my turn but i feel i am not being strong enough for her. Please help

we are retesting her bloodwork tomorrow and im overly anxious. Her numbers about three weeks ago were crazy high. Bun off the charts >180  creatine 6.5  phoshporus 16 something. (she is sleeping on me or id go grab tge paper for reference)

Thanks for the support, no one in my life can understand right now, so im thankful to have found this group!

[DogBlog]

Have been thinking of you.  I hope you are doing okay.....we never "get over" the loss.

Regards,
Charlene

[DogBlog]

Krissy......I kept Sammie's blanket in bed with me for at least two months.  Don't let anyone tell you what is the right time.  I had my Sammie cremated and she's on a bookshelf with three of our other pets we've lost.  I have her collar and tags around the box.  My goal is when I go someday, to have my ashes mixed with theirs and be scattered together.  Hope that doesn't sound too morbid but it's what makes me happy to think about.

Seven months later and I still have some of her things.  I wasn't planning on getting another dog for quite some time (I too have a another baby....11 year old lab cross).  However, about two months after Sammie died, A dog crossed my path that was up for adoption.  I knew I still had a lot of love to give and went for it.  Nobody can tell you whether or not to get another dog or even if you wanted to when the time would be right.  Mine just happened.  However, I still cry over Sammie on a weekly basis.  She was my special girl.

Big big hugs to you!!!!!

Regards,
Charlene

[KrissyM87]

I found the morrison animal foundation. Still looking though. Thought it would be a nice memorial idea. What kinds of things have you guys done for memorials. Daisy is being cremated and im planning on getting a necklace, doing  shadow box and a garden area with some daisys and garden stones.

[KrissyM87]

Thank you doesn't quite touch the gratitude i have for having found you guys at the right time. I am so sorry that you all know this grief, though. What an awful way to relate, but still thankful we have eachother. I am truly sorry for each of your losses. Keirson i know exactly what you mean by waiting to see them in a familiar place. I keep seeing her cuddled up in one of her beds, or walking into a room behind me. My little shadow is missing and so is my heart. My 13 year old husky has taken over one of Daisys beds and seems in mourning too. We took her to the vet with us so she could see for herself but she wasn't really interested in sniffing daisys body, but now she seems to finally be getting it. I love my Jewels dearly but she is a very independent dog, and wants to be left alone right now, when all i want is to hold her, but im leaving her to grieve in her own way.

I have not been able to pack up all of Daisys things, her meds, the many different cans of food blankets etc. i had just gotten a case of fluids we didnt use a single bag out of. It all hurts to look at, but i.guess moving it is truly accepting it is all over. I need to was the dog beds and blankets as id do every couple days from Daisys incontinence but i am afraid of washing her away.  Im planning on donating the fluids to another pet parent when i find one, but what did you all do with the rest of your babies things?

Also, i haven't looked it up yet, but does anyone know of any foundations/fundraisers for pet kidney disease?  Just wondering. Thanks again

[keirson]

Hi Krissy,
I have just read through your heart breaking posts and send you my best wishes. I have only just come back to this wonderful group after losing my brave handsome boy Scooby just 6 weeks ago.
I also went through "did I do the right thing" "was I being selfish in keeping him going". I still have days like that but i do believe i did the right thing as have you.
My house is so very empty and i still expect to see him poking his head around the door. I still cry most days but not every day, so things do get better.
This group is a wonderful support - it was my life line. We all understand what you are going through
sending you my best wishes

[Earlsteffie]

Good Morning Krissy, Yes, it is tough to put on your 'Public Face' when you leave home, and when you tell somebody that you lost your Beloved Companion and there is sometimes 'Silence' on the other end. Don't feel alone as per reactions from Family members. Even though my Parents have had companions all their lives, they usually view such losses on a different perspective, as most did in their generation(80's). But,....But, no one in my Family has been through CKD with their Companions....They haven't a clue. I've now been through it 3 times but, twice with my own Companions(the other with my Grandfather's dog after he passed away).

There is truly ONLY three people that KNOW what you are now going through, verbatim.......YOU.......Your Vet......and the people at this site.

For me, I'll soon turn 61. After raising three from a puppy, including Steffie, this time, it hit home very hard because Steffie was only 9. You are young.....Daisy was blessed, as were you, to have shared her life for an amazing 17 years. This will take time, but, at some point you will realize that this was a very rare gift.

I'm approaching 5 months since Steffie has been gone. Do I still cry and desperately want her back? You bet. For me, it is still toxic about thinking of getting another puppy or rescue.  But everyone's situation is different. Don't let anyone try to convince you that getting another companion will cure your grief with loosing Daisy. 'YOU' will know in the future if that should ever happen. You grieve as long as it takes, irregardless of what anyone else thinks, including your Family members.

Just always remember how well you cared for Daisy and you were gifted to have had her for 17 wonderful years.