Am I depressed?

[fin_in]

I'm 16.
I'm always really sad. Sometimes i get so sad i think i go crazy.
I get sooo irritated with it, i feel like i'm going insane.
I have a pretty good life. It all just all of the sudden happened when i was 13 and it hasn't stopped at all. I've tried to commit suicide when i was 13 with pills, but i got extremely sick. Right now i feel like i have absoultley no reason to live. I don't want to live at all. I don't know if this is just really bad depression or something else. I never know where my moods will be. My sister just slammed a door on accident and i started crying. I obsessivley day dream of me being happy. I self mutilate and self medicate. I wish i didn't but it's the only way to make it go away for a bit. I'm extremely anti social and i think i've probably lost all of my social skills from staying in too much. I just really don't know what's wrong with me and my mom doesn't believe me cause she went through the same thing but she thinks it was worse for her, but she would not have a family or anything if it was. I never tell anyone anything cause i feel like they won't understand cause if they don't it will lead me into a super big depression and it will make me crazy. I'm afraid to talk to anyone about it. What does this sound like? Is it depression.... BPD? I don't know.

[ILADVOCATE]

Yes only a psychiatrist can provide an exact diagnosis but it would be best to explain to them exactly what's going on. Then they can come to further conclusions how to help you. I agree with what other people said but just remember that you'll feel better after you seek help and they can decide exactly how to help you. If your family is resistant to the idea that you might need help then just speak to the school guidance counselor and they can make a direct referral. Organizations such as NAMI have good family and friend support groups where they can help explain to family members what is going on as you shouldn't be expected to have to do that yourself.

[Hensley258]

I will second that. Oh yes, that is major depression. What exact type of depression would have to be determined by a good Psychiatrist, but no question that it is Major depression.

It will pretty much make you feel like your going insane. That's just what it does.
Good news is that even though you may feel that your going insane, your not.

It just feels that way.

Get help.

[mammo]

Your are definitely depressed, and have to get help.  Ask your mom if she will please take you to the doctor just to make sure.  If she won't then talk to your father, and if he won't go to your school counselor and let him/ her know exactly how you feel but that you can't get your parents to take you seriously.  Parents sometimes don't want to think that their child may be depressed, and go into denial.  Even try writing your mom a letter and tell her everything, she needs to know just how serious this is!  They wouldn't want anything to happen to you, and would have to live with an awful lot of guilt if it did.  They would feel bad for not seeing that you needed help.  You cannot do this alone, and you deserve a happy and long life.  Tell your mom everything, either face to face or in a letter, but please get help.