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Dead inside, help?

I'm 15 years old, and for about the past 6 months I've been feeling depressed and completely dead inside. It started off when I had a sudden anxiety attack, I had no idea what was going on but ever since I've had pretty bad anxiety which varies between months. It started just after I'd finished some exams. Depression kind of came with that, and all I feel now is nothing. At all. I wake up, go to school, come home, go to sleep. I don't feel happy or sad or excited or anything. I just feel like I'm dead, or walking around in a dream. I don't feel alive. Before I felt like this I felt very depressed and suicidal for a few months. I haven't told my mum because she's got enough to deal with and I don't want to burden her, and I just feel like I can't tell her about it even though we are really close. I don't want to go to the doctor because then I'd have to tell my mum and they'd only probably put me on pills but idek. When it comes to my feelings and all that crap I'm not an open person, I don't open up to anyone. It's not that I've had a bad life, I've had quite a good one but I guess I've just had a lot of small, ****** things happen to me and idk, maybe I just got sick of feeling like sh*t all the time and shut myself down.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared, I feel like I've lost myself and I'm scared that I'll never feel normal again. I used to be a happy, confident kid and idk what happened. If anyone has been through the same thing and has beaten it, what did you do? How did you cope? If anyone knows what I should do, anything would be grateful.

If you've read all that, then honestly thank you.
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Hi  sounds like you could use a friend. Yes,I read all you wrote. Do you also write journals? Pamela
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I have been where you are.  please tell your mom you said u r really close and by talking with the person ur the closest to will help u so much better and may make u feel much better just talking with her.  Please know your life is very important you don't know what is in store for u but It is probably very important.  If you want to talk to someone random to tell secrets to without being judged please friend me I would live to talk with u about anything.  I am quite sure we have a lot in common.  My name is Julie message anytime.  I will be thinking about you and praying for you!
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Hey, I'm 16 and i've been feeling the same as you! I don't know how to beat it, however if you ever need to talk about anything or want someone to talk to feel free to message me! I just posted my own question if I get any responses or anything that may help you I will keep you informed.
Stay strong, x
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You just need a friend and pray. Ask God to remove that feeling you have in your heart. But please tell your mother. Trust me she would want to know
.dont be shy to talk to her. Just go up to her and say hey mom we need to talk. If you cant talk to your mother. Try talking to someone close in your family. Dont worry about what ppl will say about you. Cause no child should feel like this..do you do spots or anything after school? If not try to join something you really enjoy and like. Doing things you like can really help you becone happy. Also trying runing or do lil workout that helps too. But main thing I really want you to do. Is pray to God talk to him tell him you need his help. But please talk to your family
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I want you to do the same. I want you to talk to someone also. Dont worry about what people say. Also try join something you like. Spots or anything. Go walk when you feel like this. Or talk to a friend.
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Be aware of your own self talk and when it's negative, change it. Pursue your interest and hobbies and join a social club or sports group, or other interest group such as music, theatre, etc... this that makes you happy.

All the best
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