Hi everyone(:

[JessieJ21]

Hi, I've had depression almost as long as I can remember since I was 12 or 13. I have been through a lot. I'm almost 25 and I've thought about leaving this life early I even attempted over dosing. That was stupid I will never do that again want to know why because I can deal with hurt and pain and I don't want to cause my family that. I got help I've been In the crisis home about 4 times now haven't been in at least 3.5 or 4 years. I'm still depressed but I find people to turn to so that suicide never comes to my mind. I try really hard to be happy some days are better than others but I will never give up. If anyone needs to talk to someone about anything I am here I try to check in at least once a day. I know how better I feel to talk about problems so I want to be helpful to anyone I can be(:

[JessieJ21]

Thank you so much(: I want to use my illnesses as a reason to reach out and help others. I believe everything happens for a reason. I will use what has happened to me, to help and support other people. I want to raise awareness and support all kinds of things even things I may not have but can relate to. I have always wanted to be an inspiration to people. I used to want to be a teacher or a nurse since I was very young and to be inspirational but because my health issues hold me back from achieving that goal as well as my dream of going into the service(airforce), or even becoming a crime scene investigator, which I attempted college for had perfect grades, awards ect. and two months before graduation my depression hit bad and I couldn't consentrate or remember things I had studied so failed a class, got discouraged, and dropped out but I will be inspirational in a whole different way now(:

[4Maddie44]

Bless you for wanting to help other people when you are feeling so bad yourself.  You are so young, and have had to put up with so much from an early age.  I too took an overdose once, and you are right, we cannot do that to our family.

You are an example to us all, that you carry on with life as best you can, even though you have depression.  Yes, some days are better than others, I agree.  When I go out I put on a happy face.  Nobody wants a misery around them.  I think as long as you have told those people closest to you tat you have depression, you have support.

I always urge people who come on here feeling isolated because they can not tell people how they feel, to open up and get support, because it helps so much.  

On this site we do not feel alone if there are other people who understand how we feel.  I admire you as you say you will never give up.  I have had depression for over 20 years, but I battle it, and will not let it win.  Been hospitalised once, lost jobs and a home because of depression, but I always fought it.  

People here really appreciate those, like you, who despite their own pain are willing to listen and help any way they can.

Bless you.