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1627522 tn?1300021314

I can't understand myself.

Hi I'm ja, 26 from the Philippines. Lately I have been feeling so weird. At first I felt so tired of my daily routine and being single. Work, house usual friends then it became worse I felt so down and I feel as if there is no hope. I'm tired of hoping for a better future for someone to love me I'm tired of waiting for a change to happen. I'm feeling as If there's a big fear inside my heart that everything is going to end that this is it, there is nothing better to happen. I'm getting scared because I can't understand myself anymore. I'm not as strong and hopeful as before but I don't let anyone see it. I hide all this fear, the disappointment the loneliness because I don't want to feel like a loser. How can I bring back the happiness, the hope, the color of being alive? am I loosing my sanity am I still normal? am I the only one feeling this thing?.
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1567353 tn?1358876855
I really understand how you feel. I have that fear ALL THE TIME. Things are just constantly bad. Anytime things start getting good, something horrible happens, so I don't even have the strength anymore to hope for things to get better.
I know you might not want to hear this, but try talking to a therapist. Just talking to someone who knows what you're going through and the best way to handle might help the hopelessness. They can also suggest prescription, if you need it.
You are not losing your sanity, and you are not alone. People are here for you, okay?
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1627522 tn?1300021314
Thank you Arsia, just knowing someone really understand what I'm going through really makes me feel better. I guess I really have to talk to someone who knows what I'm going through this fear is just making me sick. Thanks again its' really a great help since I live in a very conservative country where issues like I'm going through is not very well discussed I'm glad I could find people from other places whom I can share my burdens. God bless.
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1567353 tn?1358876855
Of course, I'm always here. :] Being conservative isn't bad, I just think they should be a little more open minded. So situations like this can be avoided. :/
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