Trapped with Depression

[j17c27]

Im a freshman at college.  Ive been here almost a month and I have almost no friends. I have 1, and although I like him very much, I am so used to being surrounded by very good friends all the time (in my hometown).  Im now in a different state, 3 hours from home and I hate it here. I come from a VERY small town where I knew everyone and so this sounds weird but i pretty much forgot how to make friends.
Well, I have tried here and no matter what people really dont seem to like me. I have depression, and I feel like no one really understands. Im sitting in my dorm room alone crying hysterically because no one cares.  I want to drop out of college but if I drop out people look down on me.  Before college my depression was getting so much better...and now that im here and trapped its worse than ever.  
I used to cut myself and was proud I got over it...and now im cutting myself again.
I dont know what to do...im trapped here.  I dont want to go home, but I dont want to stay here. Everyone here has friends but me and its seriously taking a toll on me. Am I "wrong" for being depressed again? Has anyone else had trouble making friends? I dont know how to pull myself together

[j17c27]

Thank you guys so much for the encouraging words.  I joined some clubs so hopefully once those start up things will get better. Im not dropping out, I decided to stay at least the year to give things a fair try. Once again, thanks for the support, I appriciate it!

[depressogirl]

hey hun, I know how you feel, I suffer from depression sometimes as well. I just came home from finishing college, so I know that it can be hard and there are a lot of rude people. But there are also a lot of amazing people, and i think you just haven't met them yet. You will meet tons of people don't worry! Look in the mirror, you are gorgeous! Just think.. some of the people who you think don't care to talk to you probably just think the same thing.. that you don't want to talk to them, they are probably just as shy and intimidated by you. College was the best time of my life once I settled in and everything, whatever you do , don't drop out, keep your chin up, look in the mirror and think about everything that you love about yourself. Just be super confident and people will flock to you, being confident feels so much better than worrying about what people think, most of the time no one is thinking anything bad about you, and if they are it's only because they are insecure. I'm sure that if you give it some time you will meet some of your best friends in college, just try to relax and have fun. When I looked at your photo I had absolutely no judgmental thoughts about you, you look like a smart, beautiful girl. Just try to have fun! if you keep having these thoughts then go see a doctor, that's what i did and it helped. xoxoxo <3 hope everything gets better

[chabat]

I had few friends in college, and I cried too, wanting a girlfriend, feeling lonely.  It got better.  I made friends from classes I was in.  Then gf's.  The way I make friends is by showing interest in people I am interested in.  It is easy, because the interest is genuine.  Most people are very happy to have someone interested in them.  I ask a lot of questions.

I have struggled with depression most of my life, you are not wrong for being depressed.  

[gofio]

Give it a little more time for you to settle in. Your self-confidence is in need of a boost, action is needed. Suggest you join in whatever extra curricular activities are available. Must be something you like to do?Don't drop out, you'll probably regret it for life if you do. You are not trapped, all your options are open, take advantage of all that college offers. You should have a supervisor that looks after you there?Smile & you'll get them back. Wish you luck. Don't hesitate to ask for help when needed. Stay well. George