21 year old male, looking for help

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I have never once thought of myself as depressed. That being said, my whole life, I have been unable to focus on just about anything. I am a jack of all trades you could say, I pick everything I try up extremely easily, but within a very short time, I lose interest in it. This includes schoolwork, which is really dragging me down because I'm in college right now.
I also have trouble caring about things. Things such as death, money, relationships, anything really, I don't think I care about them. Every once in a while I'll be struck by episodes where I feel intense love for something or someone, but that lasts a day or two and then I become emotionless again. Not to say I don't feel humor, or anger, or sadness, I just can't really make a lasting emotional attachement, even to my parents.
I also talk to myself, a lot, even though I don't realize I'm doing it. I will literally have an entire conversation with myself, complete with disagreements, and not realize it until it is over.
I don't care about money, collecting it or spending it. I don't buy anything for desire, only for practicality. If I need it, I will buy it.
I have very potent fantasies, usually depicting myself as a hero, saving someone from an unnamed threat, whether it be terrorists or monsters. Usually they end with me rendering the villains unconscious, but never killing any of them. I have never even fantasized about killing anything, and shooting video games make me uncomfortable.
I have never struck anyone in anger in my whole life, because I am afraid of seriously hurting someone. I tend to imagine myself as incredibly strong, and if I were to hit someone, they would end up with far more injury than could be justified.
I have quite a few friends, and I enjoy spending time with them. However, there are a lot of times when I crave being alone.
It's not that I'm a sociopath or anything, I actually am great at meeting people, and develop friendships very quickly and very easily. I just don't put any emotional attachement into the relationships I make.
I have had four concussions in my life, and have never had a brain MRI. I think I might have hypothyroidism, because I gain weight very quickly, even when I eat very little; I am apathetic; and I cannot concentrate on anything.

I don't want to take any kind of depression drugs, ever. But I'm wondering if I indeed have a problem that should be checked out by a psychoanalyst.

[whodunnit]

Hi there,

You say you don't get depressed so I take your comments as being just that, not depressed.

As such they are very, very normal indeed. A young man who doesn't know what he wants to do and has no real idea of his future. So you do fantasize,. Absolutely normal. As is nearly everything you have written.

The only thing I see as an issue for you is you don't connect and as such don't develop strong feelings. They are the key to life mate, having commitment to someone, somewhere, something. If you don't have that you are empty and simply drift. I did for a very long time until I had children really and found the place I now live in, home at last.

How do you connect with family? Do you or they really care if you are around or not? Sounds like not.

At age 21 you cannot be a jack of all trades as you jabe none at all as yet. You are studying but you make no mention of what it is you study which also indicates a lack of interest.

Frankly O sispect you are wasting your time at college and need that year or two in the real world, l;iving as we all do. Experiencing life instead of sheltered homes and schools. That usually shifts our attention from the easy to what we need and what we want to do. Usually. I moved around most of my life but was married and working in the same job which was what I needed. Else I'd have been a street person. Still could be, life changes mate.

Stop dreaming, start acting. Don't imagine depression I'd say you are just bored out of your brain really. I hope so as depression is a nightmare mate.

[Andrew590]

hey man i know where you are comming from most of what you have said is very similar to myself so much that it kinda scared me. When I talk to my slef I carry conversations in my head to the point where they are very casual and I base every day decisions on them. I don't feel like I can make decisions on my own with out conversating with myself in my head. The only thing I can say is it is very good you have found this site it has helped me there are more people like you then you think. and also see a psychiatrist and talk, let them know everything thats on your mind and everything u mentioned in your post. just talk to them and you will find out what you need they will give you the help you need don't be like me and procrastinate i am getting worse with every day i have no problem helping others but I wont help myself just get an appointment and see what a profesional thinks.