I see you're 17, not 7, so that's more understandable. Look, Christmas hasn't been cancelled. It's still happening. It's just going to be different than what you expected. You've obviously got a lot going on right now that isn't very much fun. You need some fun and you need to see a therapist or counselor to talk this out, and you need CBT therapy because you are the poster child for catastrophizing and fortune telling. You'll know what this is when you do CBT, but in short, you're predicting all these things that are going to happen and expecting the worst of everything. It's this thinking that's making you nuts, the other stuff is real and is going to happen no matter what you want right now but how you react to it determines how you feel. Good luck.