i hate my life.

[HelloImStacey24]

My title says it all. I lost to me what feels like everything in November. Home, husband ect. I'm left living with my mother, sharing a bedroom with my 6 year old son, and am 6 months pregnant with another little boy. Because of high risk I'm on a leave of absence from work which now leaves me without income. My son hates me. My husband wont come home. I'm losing my will to live more and more every day. My son and my unborn baby need me and I know that. But I feel lost and overwhelmed, alone. I don't think I can do this anymore. I pray very night that I die in my sleep so I can be free of my pain and misery. I don't want to live anymore. Not like this. I don't know what to do.

[genamarie]

I know how you feel, I'm currently 33 weeks pregnant, by a guy who told me to go to hell back in the beginning of December. I met another man who stayed with me up until this past Saturday who planned a future out for us, but hasn't spoken to me since we got in a fight Saturday night and I got upset, lashed out, and told him I couldn't do it anymore, even though it wasn't what I wanted. But he apparently took it to heart. I have no income either, as before my doctor gave me the okay for leave my employer wasn't following my work restrictions and I never even saw a break 98% of the days I worked. I'm high risk also, and have been on bed rest for almost 2 months. Sounds like we're almost going through the same thing. Message me if you'd like to?

[Dalubaba]

I read messages of yours and of Myoungat heart. Have you got some help?Did your mother could help you further. Did you approach people whom M has suggested.  While searching M I read your message. I am so sorry that as a member of MH we cannot do anything to help.- a really difficult situation, our good weill prayer. Blessings.

[Dalubaba]

In spite of your own problem, you are a solace to sufferers. Your are really a brave woman. I respect you and wish you happiness. I hope you come back from your vacation and join MH again. I am sure many members must be awaiting you come back.

[MYoungAtHeart]

I am so sorry for your pain and circumstances.  I too went through the same as you and because my children never asked to be born, I turned my life around, said goodbye to the past problems with husband and losing all the fancy needless stuff and started over as Number One Mom of 2 small children, ages 1 and 3, no job, no mom, no place to go.  

You are very lucky to have your own mom to take you in and help you out.
If you don't want to live anymore, then tell your mom so that she can expect to add raising your kids to her list of things to do in the future.  

I suggest that you call ASAP your medical doctor or A Medical Doctor
and tell him/her what is going on and ask to be referred to a counselor or group therapy for Depression.  

Sometimes people can have a breakthrough like a slap in the face and
turn their lives around, but in most cases, the depression you are going through will have to be dealt with first before you might see the sun shining around the darkest corners of your life.

Good luck to you and please come back and let us know how you are doing...

M