I just want to be myself again

[kbw1991]

I havnt been myself for years im only 19 but im nowhere near what i was like a few years ago. I just want to be myself i want to be able to take this mask off that i put on everyday to hide how i feel or even who i really am. i wear this mask because if people really found out who i was they would be in shock or awe i really hate hiding my emotions behind that mask i just want to talk and be able to talk to someone without them judging me.
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i go every day wish i could get rid of the pain of going through another day of hurt and hiding from people but there is only one way to do that and there has and is many day that i wished that it would happen to me i really just dont know what to do anymore.

[therese83]

You can get better and live as yourself, you do not have to suffer like this , you have an illness and it is treatable, tricky to treat, but with a good doctor you will get well

[mammo]

It's time to address your depression with a psychiatrist so the two of you can determine the best course of treatment for you!  There is so much help for you, and know you're not alone, we hear from a lot of teens just like you! You can always talk to us, publicly or privately.  Journal your feelings and emotions, it's a form of release and does help.  Many of us hid behind a happy face while suffering, but you don't have to do this. Opening up to us was a big step and we're always here for you, but now you need to take another big step and seek professional help.  You have so much living to do, and depression is robbing you of having the happy life you want and deserve!  Don't wait on this, we want you to feel better quickly.  Big hugs and take care of YOU!