Dude you are a strong person, Your mom is a sexual being like your father, they are right or wrong is no reason, its upto you to make a choice, work its the best thing to beat any kind of depression, as meg613 said, find a partner who understands you that will reduce the load you carry in your head try to go for a rehab, for de addiction of weed. Look no matter what you cant save your mom, its a natural instinct to be a protector of your mom, but u dont really have a choice, all u can do is try to counsel her if possible else leave it to her. But you build yourself a place here, in a decent way finish your studies get a job simultaneously once you can take care of yourself can you take care of others, got it! , since nobody knows who your real dad is , just forget it! If u find out good or else not. Dude you already exist thats all, and you got to live your life.But one thing is very important you got to train well that will give you the discipline and strength to take any thing.You are 15 and you have to go through all this HATS OFF DUDE YOU ARE THE CHAMP!!
hey,
sorry you feel so alone, my life has been a breeze in comparrison. you must be so strong to have gotten through that all, although i guess you were not left much choice. although its hard for anyone to accept out parents lives are thier own and sometimes we can influence them but mostly we just can't help. they are meant to protect you not the other way around. i hope your mum gets well again but that can't be your responsibility any more. you need to focus on yourself now and your life, you need to be selfish. our experiences shape who we are but the don't controll us. let your life untill this point shape you and teach you about yourself and what king of person you want to be, you sound like you have a great heart.
but don't let your memories and lonelyness drown you!
you are 15, you have so much time to meet the right person and fall in love and i'm sure you will make an increadible partner in life to someone.
i am so impressed with your grades that is truely amazing for you, what an achievement!
keep going, i will listen if you write to me
megan
Hey, sound like you have had a full on life, which no one should go through, even though a lot of people do. i saw abuse and was abused growing up and i like to look at it as it has matured me and makes me more understanding to others and makes me know what i don't want to be like. my past caused me to get Post- traumatic stress disorder, which includes depression. i never did smoke week though i know a lot of people who do, do you find it kills your motivation and energy levels? or do you find it positive? i love music too.
you can talk to me any time k.