HOLY POO! You will NOT believe this!!!! POSITIVE TODAY!

[scienceteacher79]

As you all know - 2 weeks ago I was getting very very fainbt positives. Started bleeding 2 saturdays ago (brown and weird looking). Went to have my blood test done almost 2 wks ago EXACTLY! "Less than one" was my beta test. So, after all the money and pain, we lost another baby - or so I THOUGHT! Now, I had a little period the few days after I started bleeding - brownish, reddish, chunky (sorry - TMI!) - nothing like a normal period but whatever. Anyway, I finally had sex with DH again Saturday (yesterday) and started to spot (brown - dark, no red) which is completely weird. I never spot in between periods. Anyway, i had one digital test left and said "what the heck". I had literally JUST peed 5 mins before and managed to sqeeze out a few drops (like 5! haha) into a cup and stuck the test in. It started blinking so I jumped in the shower and put it on the outside ledge. AND THEN I SAW IT! YES+ IT SAID YES+!! So, i screamed for DH, tried to explain it to him and then started to laugh hysterically. IT WAS ALL I COULD DO!! HAHAHAHAH! So, of course I ran to walmart and got more tests!! HAHAH!! They are all positive! Not as dark as I feel they should be for almost 6 wks so I am not thinking this is going to work out to be a good scenerio BUT that is the darkest tests I HAVE EVER HAD!! HAHAHAH - I can not believe this. I am going to the doc at 8am sharp and hopefully will know something by 3 or 4pm tomorrow.

It is either going to be: remnants of something that tried to grow, an ectopic (god I hope not - I only have one good unblocked tube), or a miracle baby - sweet Lord! I am so freaked out right now!!!

Any thoughts?

[scienceteacher79]

The "death shots" didn't hurt too bad. My @ss is a bit sore. Two shots, one in each hip/butt. OUCH! And to add insult to injury: I CAN'T DRINK! AT ALL!! I NEED WINE!! I just bought a new bottle I wanted to try and then she gives me the shots and tells me I can't drink. Hold up! I need a drink right now -heck, I deserveeeeee a drink right now :) I, of course, ask how long? A week or more...ugh, seriously? I told her I needed a drink after all of this! She said she understood and then HUGGED me. Guess she realized what a witch she had been this week, So, here I am; unable to have a drink (which makes me want one more :) - please understand I don't drink a lot. I may have an entire bottle of wine a month, but danggggg I feel like I deserve one! I didn't sign up for "no drinking" shots. I signed up for "get rid of the tissue before I get a raging infection and have to have surgery" shot. Oh well, I go back Tuesday to check my levels again (and beg for a drink :) - hugs girls!!

jen

[babywanted556]

I'm so sorry for your loss and happen more than ones.  So this time, is it ectopic?  If it is, have you thought about to remove the bad tube, so when you pg again, you don't have to worry about it.  My first MC is maybe an ectopic but it resolved by itself so we are not clear it's MC or ectopic, there is nothing in my uterus at all at 6.5 weeks.  The second time is ectopic and I decide to remove the tube.  Now i'm 35 weeks pg.  I wish you the best.

[Quinns momma]

Awwww, schucks. Been following your posts. Was hoping things would have a different outcome...  Thinking of you!

[Sammy_J]

Awwwwwww, i'm so sorry for you! I was checking back hoping to hear about your "miracle" and I got bad news instead.
You are one heck of a strong woman!! Sending you hugs and prayers to help you get thru this tough time. Good luck with the shots and hope things are easy for you...
Hugs,
Sam.

[scienceteacher79]

Thanks girls - you made me feel better about the shots. Just wishing I could just have the d and c and get it alllll over with. I will not be TTC anytime soon. After three miscarriages in three years, I just need a LONGGGG break. Meanwhile i will curse the women who have 18 kids, are on welfare, and get knocked up again :) Who's with me? hee hee

rdh - thanks babe :)

usuk: I KNOW!! It just doesn't want to keep a NORMAl pregnancy. For some reason my body hangs on to the BAD ones...jeesh!

To all you girls: You are flippin' awesome! I do not know what I would do without you all and your love and hugs! You are the bestest!

Going in tomorrow to get my "death shots" (seattleview -THAT is exactly how I feel about this shots!!!)  :) - hugs!

[Wantababy111]

I had the methotrexate a couple of months ago, at least it doesn't hurt like it sounds like it would.. lots of cushion down there you won't even feel it.  It ***** though.. did you doc say you have to wait 3 monts before ttc again?  I had to and i wept the whole way through..  I wish you well though!