Well...one of it was guilt, but the most of all was the fear of getting hiv...that might be the major cause. So you're saying that no matter what, I'll be negative from that encounter, is that what you saying? This will be my last post of this matter
Still not sure...i am currently worrying about a what if situation... .
Yes you are, which is consistent with anxiety. From the wording of your post, you obviously are regretful about this incident, and suffering with some guilt, as you describe this incident as though you were "forced" rather than a willing participant. You absolutely have complete control over your actions and reactions...you CHOSE to engage in the encounter you had, and that's just fine. As far as HIV goes, ONLY unprotected sex will cause a risk, sexually speaking. You did NOTHING to place yourself at risk for HIV.
Your issue is anxiety, probably fueled by guilt, shame and regret. There is probably a big cultural component involved there, as these kinds of encounters are thought of in a much more shameful way in other parts of the world. You need to let it go, you didn't do anything wrong, and you didn't place yourself at risk. If you cannot accept the facts, then you may want to seek profressional help for the anxiety.
Good luck.
We don't do "what ifs", on this forum.
Still not sure...i am currently worrying about a what if situation...
The mechanics of how many seconds it takes for HIV to to become inactive once exposed to the environment is irrelevant. From your account of what happened you did not have an exposure to HIV. You had no risk and you do not need testing.
If you cannot move on from this event then please make an appointment to see your doctor to find the best way forward to deal with your anxiety.
I wanted to know why Teak. Through other people's post i knew that you said this frequently, but i am not sure. If this was true, why don't the cdcs' have said this? Why can't they be more, "liberal", at least less conservatice? Even at the docotor forum, they used "they'll be inactive immediatley OR almost immediatly" or "you have extremely small or no risk", why do they keep saying that?
HIV is unable to reproduce outside its living host (unlike many bacteria or fungi, which may do so under suitable conditions), except under laboratory conditions; therefore, it does not spread or maintain infectiousness outside its host.
HIV is transmitted by;
Unprotected penetrative anal and/or vaginal sex
Sharing works with other IV drug users
Mother to child
Absolutely no risk. Forget about it and move on.