This is an OCD concern, not an HIV concern. Your friend was correct. Please take up any further questions with a mental health professional. Your issues are beyond the scope of help that an HIV forum can provide.
Thanks,
The thing is I'm not dreaming, I did leave my flat and walk down to the sauna/ use the ATM etc - I'm just worried because I cant remember the walk back - this is whats causing me to freak out as obviously I went to the sauna looking for sex.
Do you still think its a non risk and that I would remember? Surely if I remember being at the ATM I would remember sex despite not remembering the walk home - can you be so drunk you totally forget sex and meeting someone - and then not be aware of it the next day? I must have fallen at some point as I have these bruises but I dont remember falling and thats making me more paranoid.
I willl be seeking help for my mental health issues and I dont want to take up anymore of your time - I value your judgement and wont post again if you could just respond to this.
Thanks
You don,t need nPEP you need to wake up from this dream you just had.Your friend is right,you never had a risk you would have known if you had sex its not something you forget.