Extremely brief dipping (?) - Please, help me...

[mmdemon]

Hello, I want to share this with you. I'm gay and I have had a relationship with the most wonderful man on earth for three years and half; however, I never stopped being hot-headed...

I promised myself I would stop being like that after my last neg hiv result (which I did three weeks after I sucked one guy's **** in the gym and became increasingly anxious about it - sidequestion: was this test realiable or a good indicator?), but then I went to my gym's sauna and start chatting with some guy...

He gave me head, I never touched his penis; neither with my hands, or my mouth; if was being unfaithful, at least I didn't wanna put myself or my partner at risk. However, this guy started like trying to masturbate me with his *** crack. I had my had on my penis almost the whole time just in case he tried to sit and make me **** him bareback. It was kinda dark and with a lot of steam so I couldn't see very well, but I felt a strange pressure on the very tip of my glans. I'm REALLY not sure if I penetrated him or not, but I was REALLY scared when that happened and pushed him away; if I was inside him, it was probably just millimeters of the head and for -at best- one and half second.

I feel guilty as hell because I had promised myself I'd never be like that... I hate myself right now and I feel scared to death this might be it, that this time time I have catched HIV. I can't sleep or eat or anything, I just feel scared...

Are my concerns regarding hiv just part of my imagination or am I really at risk? ...

Thank you so much...

[Teak]

Had you penetrated him you would have known. You did not have an exposure.

[viky0409]

Its not a risk

[mmdemon]

Today I have started feeling a little bit sick a couple of red spots have appeared on my chest. I don't have a fever and I just seem to have a runny nose. Could this be any ARS?

Three weeks have passed and I don't know if by testing now I could get some degree of certainty regarding my results...

[Teak]

Move along, you never had an exposure.

[mmdemon]

Just one more thing. I read you one said that you can't dip in a second, what did you mean by that? Because I'm really not sure if the tip of my glans was inside him; if it was -just for one sec-, wouldn't that count as a exposure and dipping?

Please, don't put a warning on me... I'm just concerned...

[RainLover71]

There has to be full unprotected penetration for there to be a risk & this never happened with you now move on.