my story like a question.. plz help

[God4giv]

It had occurred to me  I had protected sex with a prostitute whose status is positive I used condom though I was drunken after ejaculation I managed to checked out the condom, it  didnt break after the incident .I felt guilty confused and full of regrets.. it was Sunday night anxiously on Wednesday I took ag test it was negative then chaos started on Thursday I had a night sweats then Friday I experienced fatigue etc... but I was so depressed and anxious that week I couldn't stay in one place for more than 5 minutes.. the 2nd week was my nightmare I was constantly checking if I had sore throat. I felt hot. I didn't feel to eat anything.  Confused on my mind I had suicidal thought s most of the time.. like popping pills and just die or tying a dead weight and drowning my self into the ocean not to be ever found so my family won't see me again coz I have failed them, considering am only boy in the family of four girls ,my father has great ambitions of inherite me his business and properties. Also I am a university student 22 years am on my final year, it had occurred during the UE I didn't think straight. I could not concentrate on studying for even 5 minutes. All I ever thought was just to end my life. Till this this moment 6th week prior I experience a cough but I think it is caused by dusty environment, dandruff, my right groin I felt like there's a swollen lymph, flu.
I have experienced all hiv symptoms ( hot body, nausea, weight loss, night sweats, fatigue, cough, flu, lack of appetite etc) symptoms I didnt experience is body rush , vomiting, head ache only... I am a catholic since the incident I have been praying so much for lord to spare my life
I have some thoughts that I won't test I just wait my death in 5 if lucky 10 years then am gone... the only thing that gives me hope is I used a condom but I was a little drunk...
  Please lord spare my life... it was a foolish mistake 3 minutes that cost me my life... how fool of me

[God4giv]

I hope I'll have the guts to test after 3 month... am scared... am so stupid for the mistakes I have done

[Davison72]

You are stressing your self out to much so you should stop stressing and all the symptoms will go away and you said you used condom the risk of you getting HIV is slim therefore you should not worry and go back take another test

[God4giv]

thanks iwan25.. am scared I live like a zombie.. I had been so calm up to the point my parents doubt something isnt right about me.

[Iwan25]

Your guilt is making you irrationally anxious. Irregardless of her HIV status you used a condom. You have already stated it was intact and you would know if it failed. Thus there is no risk of HIV from the incident described. Even if the condom had failed the chance of HIV infection is small. If you require reassurance take a test 30 days after exposure. The symptoms you describe above are generic and I suspect most are caused by anxiety.