On your last thread, the risks for transmission were given to you. I'll tell you again and then you'll have to either accept it or try to get help for anxiety. You had no risk because you didn't do one of the three things that are ways people get HIV. They are to have unprotected (no condom, tip of penis exposed) vaginal sex (penetrating) or unprotected anal sex or sharing of IV drug needles. It doesn't matter if vaginal fluid just touches you. Air inactivates it. So, in no way was your exposure a risk.
Accept or get help for anxiety. Hope you move on in peace. You don't have HIV.