i need same help

[ineedsomeadvise]

3 years ago i went to a massage parlor and the lady asked me to flip over on my stomach. shen the took her clothes of and started to masturbate hersefl. she then grabbed my penis with the same hand and started to mastrubet me. she had a condom in her other hand that was already out of the wrapper, put it on my penis and started to give me oral sex. when i finished the condom was not broken.

2 years ago i went to a massage parlor the lady fingered my butt for a few second, gave me a condom and i put it on. she crwled on top of my and stuck my penis in her vagina for a few seconds. when i pulled out the condom was not broken.

my question is can condoms fail without breaking? is there any risk of hiv from these 2 situations?

[CurfewX]

Those are some very good reasons.  HIV isn't that easy to get.  It doesn't generally happen via some freak accident.  It usually happens because people have unprotected sex or share needles.  

You really need to move on from this incident.  You didn't get HIV from anything you did, and you'll feel a lot better if you just quit searching for reasons why you might have gotten HIV.  You didn't.

[ineedsomeadvise]

thank you so much for your reply.  i am happily married and i think the guilt is getting to me.i lay in bed at night praying that i have not infected my wife from these two incidents.  i get sick google it and freak out that i have hiv.  my wife wants to have another baby  and she wants to start trying, that is why i am on here now trying to seek advise.  thank you so much for your help.  i will do everything i can to move on from this. god bless you

[CurfewX]

If your condom did not break wide open, you had no risk for HIV.  People don't get HIV due to "small holes" in condoms.  That's an unnecessary worry.  And masturbation is totally different than having sex.  People get HIV from having unprotected anal/vaginal sex, no condom or condom breaks completely, or by sharing intravenous drug equipment.

[ineedsomeadvise]

one last questions, is it because it takes alot of hiv to get you infected and because the only thing that really  needs to be covered during sex is the tip of your penis?

[ineedsomeadvise]

so, there is no way hiv can get threw a small hole in a condom?  the only way a condom could fail would be if it would break or tear?  that would be very noticeable. if there was a hole in the condom would it tear or break?
i read an article that semen can leak out of condoms and cause pregnancy. could that happen with Hiv?

in regards to mutual masturbation, this is not a risk due to HIV cannot live or be transmitted outside its host. I have heard that the only vaginal fluids that can transmit HIV is deep inside the vagina. is that true?

In regards to oral sex, there is only a very small or neglible risk for the person giving oral sex to a man, is that true. Saliva does not transmitt Hiv? And if there was bleeding in the mouth, the saliva would kill the Hiv?

is there an hotline that i could call and talk to a counselor about this? i am so depressed i am thinking about suicide

[RubyWitch]

A condom that "fails" is a condom that has "broken" and you would know. You had zero risk from these exposures

[ineedsomeadvise]

Just out of curiosity i was wondering how you can say protective sex is virtually no risk for hiv.  i have heard that the only way a condom cannot work if it breaks wide open and you would notice it.  I tried something today, i poked a small whole in a condom and masturbated with it.  the condom did not break.  is it possible that hiv could pass through small wholes in condoms with out the condom breaking?