Crazy Anxious

[J118]

Hi everyone,

I am going for an hiv test on Friday but the stress and anxiety is eating me alive.

I was tested about 2 years ago and was negative...I was single and remained that way for a few months after that. I then became involved with my old high school boyfriend. Apparently a few years after high school, while him and I were not in contact, him and some of our other high school friends became iv drug users. Well my boyfriend(his is now my ex) stopped using about 5-6 months before we came in contact again and started dating. I asked him if he had ever been tested, and assured me that he had. He also said he didnt share needles, confessed that he was worried about hep c because his own needles werent always new and clean, but that they were his own. We dated for about 8 months, and broke up in June of 2007. I have not really had any symptoms of anything (I did have the have the flu about a month ago, but so did lots of people).

Him and I still stay in touch, we are both with other people now, and he hasnt exhibited any sympoms of anything either but I am still so so so freaked out. I feel like a fool for trusting him and believing that he got tested, for he seems to be the type of person that while he doesnt lie outright that I know of, certainly embelishes stories, and isnt exactly fully honest...i keep replaying how things were a year and a half ago when we first had sex, remembering that I got a cold about 3-4 weeks after (not a terrible cold but still...) and everytime I have a small symptom (stiff neck from time to time, though I do carry alot of books on my shoulder) headaches from time to time (though I do grind my teeth at night) I get siezed by a crippling anxiety that it is hiv.

Any help to get me through til number 1, Friday when I take the test and number 2 next week when the results come back would be so appreciated.

Thanks again

[halyn]

you can use rapide test it give you  result at 20 minute,or home test

[J118]

I know, you are right. I am just hoping that he didnt lie and everything is ok. Thanks for your reply

[Teak]

He can't give himself HCV. He would have to have shared works for that to happen. As for you testing is the only way to know your status.

[J118]

Just to clarify in case there is confusion...he was supposedly tested for hep as well and doesnt have it...the only reason I brought it up was because when I voices concern over his status and asked if he got tested he said yes, i was tested a couple times, not over conern for hiv though that was part of the testing (wasnt concerned because he suppoesdly never shared needles) but because of his concern for hep c, which came back negative as well..supposedly.