does interferon destroyed my soul?

[lookbehindyou]

Hi, I did take IFN alpha together with sovaldi for 12 weeks. That was 3 months ago. I cleared the virus. My ability to focus and for example play guitar is totally wrecked. I was so happy before treatment. Now I can't properly talk. I feel like I lost 50 points lent IQ.
I'm only 25 and I'm about to kill myself if my soul doesn't comes back. I don't want to live in this shell tx left behind... Sad

[dontworry_behappy1]

I think that would be a great idea.   You take it easy and rest.

[lookbehindyou]

ok ok ok ok, im in hospital since 5 months. i try to ask a nurse for some lorazepam.

[dontworry_behappy1]

Call 911 and get help.  

[lookbehindyou]

it doesn't make any sense. i read so many horror stories and i think what im experiencing now is only the beginning of the nightmare, only the tip of the iceberg. i don't know if i survive the next 5 years but it seems that i can only pray until this is over, praying to god... i wish i could die silently, i would if i could. this is absolutly horrifing, i thought this TX would help. i can't live with these symptoms anymore. i want to die. im crying

[dontworry_behappy1]

Yes it went away.   Try not to stress so much.  

[lookbehindyou]

b-b-ut it went away with time you say. It went away, you say it went away didn't you ? you are not lunatic, you are someone i can trust