1st Miscarriage

[Nolta]

This isn't a question but, me speaking out on my story.

Last week I went into the Dr.'s to get a u/s done. I was 7 weeks pregnant so I was excited that I would be able to see the little heart beat. But of course there was no heart beat to see or blood flow. The only thing the Dr. could think what went wrong was that my uterus was not growing properly and it wasn't attached in a "good" area. In the back of mind I thought something was wrong, but, I brushed it off because I thought I was being paranoid. Of course I think; what I have done wrong? What could have I don’t different? But, then looking at the u/s and being so early in the game I knew this wasn’t my fault. This was God’s will or nature taking its course (and it took the wrong turn).

I've been ttc for a year and it took many many months to find that I have PCOS. So when I got pregnant my husband and I were so excited that we told everybody. Unfortunately that seemed to be a big mistake.

I’m thankful it happened now instead later down the road. But, it still breaks my heart. I knew I was going to have complications but I thought it wouldn’t be till my third trimester. I say this because after of all of the u/s I’ve done it shows that I don’t have a full uterus. I can’t wait when I can try again but, I am afraid that I will miscarry again.

I am experiencing cramping and having a period. I didn’t do a D&C instead I went the medication rout. I am assuming the cramping and heavy bleeding (like when your period first starts) is normal? I must say the hardest part of this was accepting it and now talking about it. I just hope every day that passes I get stronger, happier, and ready to move on to the next step. When people ask me how I am doing I just tell them one day at a time and thankfully they understand.

[megancannon]

i am sorry for your loss and hope you can find peace in your heart to heal. i know all to well the feeling of losing a baby. i lost my third on december 6th, 2009. i too, was so excited with my 1st baby. it took me almost a year to get pregnant. i went into pre-term labor at 20 weeks and on the second day in the hospital my water broke and my son was delivered. he died 22 minutes later while i was holding him. i never thought i would be able to get over it or find the strength to try again. 8 months later, i got pregnant again and miscarried only a week after finding out. i found the strength to push forward and try again, i have just always felt like i want meant to be a parent. so, i got pregnant one more time. i was followed so closely with ultrasounds every week, i was so hopeful things were going good and then out of no where i went into pre-term labor just like i did with my son. our daughters brain hemorrhaged during delivery and she died. i won't even lie.. my heart is still broken. i miss them all so much and some days, i just can't get that lump out of my throat. just know.. we are still mothers. we still had children and we still love them just like a mother does, our children just had a special place to be. time heals all wounds.. and hopefully one day, we will all have a healthy baby in our arms. there is a song by george canyon called my name. you should listen to it, it's amazing, i feel like it was written about people like us. good luck to you. you're in my prayers.

[mjmom69]

I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how hard it is. All I can say is it will get better and your desire will one day be greater than your fear and you'll want to TTC again. Although you will probably worry once you are, but that is normal too. You'll go thru so many emotions in the next few months but it will get better. Just know that we are all here for you and will answer any questions we can.
I had a D&C so I don't know about the meds but I've heard it is painful. Let me know if I can help with anything at all.
Take care.