Testing makes this type of thinking continue on and on. Please read my post about The Anatomy Of a Horrific Thought. I will move it o the top of the forum
Also i have just watched gay porn and straight porn as a test to see and when i watched the straight porn i got a little erection not a huge one but i still got aroused and an erection and when i watched the gay porn my heart started beating fast and my anxiety was high and i also didnt get an erection what so ever
We are not qualified to diagnose people on the forum so I cannot say whether you are gay, bi or hetero. What I do want to know is during those experimental times you pretty much say "I can't remember" for everything. What I want to know is are you blocking this out for some reason? I mean if you had anal sex, I think you would remember it. Is it something that thinking back it disgusts you and so you are trying to block those memories because now you are saying that "being with a man makes me feel sick and its not right."