so i just turned 16, and im having a fear of being or becoming gay constantly, i think about what if im gay like very five minutes of the day and its annoying. i feel like im gay because sometimes i like to look at pics of shirtless celebrities and men (never in a romantic way or sexual way) i think about what they look like having sex with a girl most of the time. i have been looking at like every guy this way lately. i have always liked girls romantically and sexually, but now i feel like im loosing interest because of my stress. at shcool, most of y friends are girls so i feel like i cant look at them sexually, because i feel like its rude. when i look at guys in my school i wonder what they look like naked, i DONT imagine them having sex with me, i have dont that before and masturbated to the thoughts and it just doesn't feel right, when i think about a guy who looks better than be screwing a girl, or me screwing a girl i find those thoughts enjoyable. every time i masturbate guy pop into my head and invade my straight thoughts, just before i ejaculate gay thoughts pop in my head, i feel like i might act on these thoughts later on. in school i look at most guys and get sexual thoughts about me doing it with them, these are not thoughts i like, i hate them and want them gone, there not pleasurable at all. i cummed to a gay thought once and i freaked out, and thought that must mean im gay, i even asked my parents what they think i am and they said gay people dont get upset about the thoughts or think about it constantly, ive been driving myself and them crazy. do i sound gay, i really dont want to hear i am, or u will know in the future.
and i keep having bad thoughts of me with a husband in the future and i dont want a husband or a wife, but i dont want a husband or a boyfriend
and i used to look up pics of ****s, idk y, i was 13 when i did that but i never looked at that becuase i wanted to do it with them, i just did cuz i was curious i guess, i dont do that anymore, but i look at pics of naked men a women, i get erect for women really quick, but not men, i have gotten erect for men a few time though which make me think im gay, again i dont want to hear ur gay or wait it out
i constantly test my self during masturbation, and i have wondered what it would look like if i gave a guy a **, and i didnt like that thought but it keeps coming back
im pretty sure i have hocd, i cant really picture myself gay, and i think sex with a man is gross
and i have always known i was was straight until now, i am positive gay people like there thoughts i dont, i have always wanted a girlfriend i have liked this one girl for 4 years. but i feel like im in denial, constantly and its getting annoying i also dont want to here just deal with it ur gay and u know it, the thing is being gay isnt a life style for mean i dont even no what i am anymore, i have only thought about girls never guys, until a few months ago and i dont want these thoughts. i tried asking this question on yahoo, and they said i was curious, hormones, i was bi sexual or i was gay, so i came here for a better answer cuz i think i have hocd