also I've always only wanted to impress guys. whenever a guy gives me compliments or a guy asks for my number I blush and get all excited! if a girl did that I would run away as fast as possible. but maybe I'm bi??
and I'm 16. I just want these thoughts gone. without make up I feel like I must look like a lesbian. I dress like a normal girl and do my hair. but all I can do it look at girls recently and I hate it. I want it to stop. I've been turned on if like in a music video a girl twerks or something but I would never just look at a girl and want her to take her clothes off. no thanks. I want their clothes on but if they have leggings or something I can't stop looking! I'm also obsessed with what my body looks like as well as my butt and stomach just like I'm obsessed with other girls butts and stomachs. I don't get turned on by penises like some of my friends do. I don't like nudes from guys but I like them in boxers. I just want to be straight and be happy and live again! I really hope it's some how hocd. but idk becuase I don't have ocd. recently I've been looking at girls instead of guys but I don't want to! and I only see myself with a guy. not a girl. I can't even get myself to experiment it grosses me out. please help
when I'm not thinking about it I'm happy like so happy and when I came across a post (after obviously looking up lesbian posts and questions) I smiled and basically laughed becuase I got so happy! like a huge relief!
and one last thing. if I'm on a guys Instagram I always go to the pictures where he's with girls. idk why. I just do. idk what to do and I'm freaking out!
also when I was with the bf that ended badly I always wanted kisses from him and got butterflies all the time.
Hi there. First let me tell you that my own OCD kicked in around your age and it has to start somewhere right?
My take on being gay is that it is genetic. You are either born gay or you are not. You don't wake up one day and become gay. People that are gay know it from early on in life. Oh they may grow up and get married but trust me, they know they are gay and living a lie.
Gay people don't fight gay thoughts. In fact gay people have the opposite OCD that you are having. They are afraid they will become straight!
It is very common to compare ourselves to other people. Hell I'm 50 and I still look at women my age and compare myself...doesn't make me gay.
Here are a few links to OCD in general and other one written by an actual gay person. Let me know what you think. Also stop Googling stuff. Don't test yourself. It will only keep you stuck in the OCD loop. You need to adopt the "WHATEVER" attitude. You think the thought, you say whatever, and then busy yourself with something. When you stop giving these thoughts credit, you take the fear out of them and it will go away.
If you continue to have problems, then you should talk to your parents about seeing a psychologist that specializes in OCD.