Aa
Sound like hocd?
Hi I've been having this problem since about October of last year, I'm a 17 year old male and have had the obsession about my sexually since then and it's been bothering me/ affecting my daily life. Not that recently I've been having these thoughts relating my problem with the real world. For example I'll say "if this person walks in the room at this time it's means I'm gay" or " if they that persons say a certain thing I'm gay". I don't use it the finalise my questioning but its effects me short term. Now I've learnt to combat that thinking process but the feeling and thoughts are often still with me. Like when watching porn or something sexual, I'll focus as much as I can on the feamale, but my mind tells me I'm looking at the male. And I switch to thought of homo activity. I've never wanted to do this before at all but my mind is telling something like I do. I've never really had a crush or been in a serious relationship. Sex if sort of not existent atm but I think it has something to do with prone masturbation, another thing that's affecting me. I also have this uncomfortable feeling around my 'behind area' sometimes almost like my minds telling me I want to act on that homo activity. About a year ago I've would have never even thought this would be an issue for me but it's come to this now. Don't really understand.
Wow, what a coincidence. We are both seventeen years old, both with name Patrick, and both being fear of turned/turning gay. The funny thing is that i'm having exacly the same syndroms! You are not alone!
Same as you I've never EVER in my life had gay thoughts in my mind. Even when I was a little kid I was jealous when girls picked other boys rather than me, and I could feel happiness when girls liked me. Even during my puberty I was SO into girls, like my friends thought I was the craziest because I just fancied the girls so much. During this period I watched a lot of porn and masturbated everytime. I absolutely loved girls and that was the only thing I thought about. I was this kind of person that only had girls in my mind, like all the time, all day all week. Therefore I always got random boners in class at school. I even fell in love with females played in movies and if there was a video with a pretty girl or a handsome guy, I would only look at the girl, like it was automatic. This was before I had gotten the fear of turning gay. (This was just some weeks before).
But for me I've had girlfriend before and when I had a crush I could obiviously feel my heart beating hard and having butterflies in my stomach.
Last year was absolutely awful during christmas holiday. That's when I was introduced into HOCD. I started getting alot of stress and all these symptoms. You can actually read my previous post about my HOCD during that period.
But after days and weeks I understood how to control the anxiety attacks and so on. So the pressure and anxiety actually lowered alot when the semester started again.
I don't get palpitations as much as I used to, but the worry is still there. And as you said that there is that "uncomfortable feeling" around my back, too be more specific my arslehole, like I want to act something homosexual. It's just so disgusting thinking about that but the feelings just keep stuck there. Nowadays I become worried but not to that extent. I really want to visit a psychologist but don't know how.
Same as you I've never EVER in my life had gay thoughts in my mind. Even when I was a little kid I was jealous when girls picked other boys rather than me, and I could feel happiness when girls liked me. Even during my puberty I was SO into girls, like my friends thought I was the craziest because I just fancied the girls so much. During this period I watched a lot of porn and masturbated everytime. I absolutely loved girls and that was the only thing I thought about. I was this kind of person that only had girls in my mind, like all the time, all day all week. Therefore I always got random boners in class at school. I even fell in love with females played in movies and if there was a video with a pretty girl or a handsome guy, I would only look at the girl, like it was automatic. This was before I had gotten the fear of turning gay. (This was just some weeks before).
But for me I've had girlfriend before and when I had a crush I could obiviously feel my heart beating hard and having butterflies in my stomach.
Last year was absolutely awful during christmas holiday. That's when I was introduced into HOCD. I started getting alot of stress and all these symptoms. You can actually read my previous post about my HOCD during that period.
But after days and weeks I understood how to control the anxiety attacks and so on. So the pressure and anxiety actually lowered alot when the semester started again.
I don't get palpitations as much as I used to, but the worry is still there. And as you said that there is that "uncomfortable feeling" around my back, too be more specific my arslehole, like I want to act something homosexual. It's just so disgusting thinking about that but the feelings just keep stuck there. Nowadays I become worried but not to that extent. I really want to visit a psychologist but don't know how.
I've always had fantasies about women, but recently some gay thought pops into my head ( like a sexual one) and by that time I've already climaxed, it's distorting my interest I can really make sense of it.. I carry on sometimes and that's the worrying thing
It looks like your are suffering from ocd, ocd can hit you in any form , in your case the obsessions are related to doubt over sexuality, first thing you have to realize that ocd cannot go away on its own.
you need to take treatment from a psychiatrist or psychologist,the treatment of ocd consists of medicine as well as cognitive behavior therapy, you need to take both for speedy and effective treatment.
you need to take treatment from a psychiatrist or psychologist,the treatment of ocd consists of medicine as well as cognitive behavior therapy, you need to take both for speedy and effective treatment.
Hi Patrick,
It certainly sounds like you are suffering from OCD. You are experiencing intrusive thoughts that you can't control that are making you feel anxious. One thing makes you gay - being sexually attracted to men. If you have been attracted to women / girls in the past, nothing is suddenly going to turn you gay. "if this person walks in the room at this time it's means I'm gay" is an irrational thought. You say you aren't having sex, but when you masturbate, do you fantasize about women? When these thoughts about men intrude, does it shut down your sexual excitement?
It certainly sounds like you are suffering from OCD. You are experiencing intrusive thoughts that you can't control that are making you feel anxious. One thing makes you gay - being sexually attracted to men. If you have been attracted to women / girls in the past, nothing is suddenly going to turn you gay. "if this person walks in the room at this time it's means I'm gay" is an irrational thought. You say you aren't having sex, but when you masturbate, do you fantasize about women? When these thoughts about men intrude, does it shut down your sexual excitement?
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