I am at a place that I never wanted to be.......

[crecco]

  For right now, I have to make this short and sweet as it is hard to type through the tears. I saw my Dr today ad got the results of Mondays CT scan. Things do not look good. My counts went from 1334 to over 3000 in two weeks and the scan shows rapidly progressing disease. I go in next Mon to have a pic line put in and Wed to start navelbine. He figures that there is only about a 15 to 20 percent chance that chemo will make any significant difference. But I am to keep my hopes up because we just never know.
  
   I promise that we will have our get together in Chicago, if it is the last thing that I ever do.  That is going to happen and I will be there no matter what.
   When I calm down a little bit later on, I will be back on and get my butt in gear. I just wanted to let you all know what was going on. I love each and every one of you.
                  Chris
  

[hopeshell]

I haven't been on in quite a while.  But, it broke my heart to read your post.  I will be praying for you that you will be in that 15 to 20% group.  Keep the faith!  You are strong and you can make it!  

Love, Shelly

[MinnieWM]

Chris,

I am more sorry than words can say, and I pray that the doctors come up with an option that will work for you.  Hang on to the fact that you are physically strong, and you have a doctor who is willing to fight for you.  You should be a prime candidate for treatment that some women might not be able to tolerate.

Minnie

[survivor_susie]

Chris,
I don't know what I can add at this point.  Everyone has so eloquently said what I feel.  We all love you and support you.  Through our tears we are all fighting for you. You are such a beautifully strong woman.  
I vote that each of us donates one year of our lives to you.  
Here.  Here are 12 months of my life that I'll gladly share with you.
I hope that works.
Love and support and tears,
Kathy

[nyc lady]

If the doctor in St Louis has no other thoughts, maybe there is one at MD Anderson, Johns Hopkins, or somewhere else that might have an idea of what will work or help.......keep fighting as long as you have the fight in you and miracles can happen.  You have a huge army behind you!!!!
Whatever you need, we are here for you.
Love,
Pam

[Conners]

God bless you Chris. You are tough! I will keep you in my prayers. Conners

[fungirl1011]

OH MY GOODNESS!!!  I am so sorry Chris.  I am just devistated at what you found out.  I too will do ANYTHING I can to help you with the Chicago trip.  You know I am only 2 hours away if you need me for anything.  You are a true fighter Chris, I know the kind of willpower you have.  REST and do what YOU need to do to fight this damn disease.  You have a whole group of people here behind you to support you.  Lean on us when you need to.  I'm glad you have such a great doctor.  I PRAY that he and the Dr. in St.Louis can come up with something.  Try to look on the positive side, and know I will be praying my heart out for you.  I love you Chris, and will do anything I can for you.  Hugs, Kasie