Becky,
I'm probably going to get a lot of flack from this, but for some reason I can hear Jan in my head telling me what to say. So here goes.
You want to get p!ssed off. Go ahead. Scream & yell (but not to Ty). Everyone tells you to be strong and that you're the strongest person they know, blah blah blah. You're sick of it. Cry if you want to. Get mad! Hit something (but not someone). Throw something across the room. Don't fake it anymore. You're mad and you want to get it out so do it! You have 5 minutes to do this. Then when you're done, get a cup of tea and watch your favorite soap.
I listen to everyone tell you how strong you are and that you're an example for them. Well, you are and that's the way it is. You are strong, but you need to get out your frustrations too. So take 5 minutes (no more than 5) and cry, scream and get mad, because when you do that you release these endorphines, that actually make you feel better. You're tired when you're done, but you'll feel better. Don't let it build up that's not healthy either.
Please know that you are in my prayers everyday and I pray that you will find a way to beat this.
Ok I'm ready for everyone to yell at me now.
Love Lisa
Oh, Becky, I am so sorry to read what you are going through. It completely and totally *****. I am glad that you let it out on here, that is what we are here for. I am so amazed by the woman and mother that you are. You have been through hell and you still support all of us and the absolute love you have for Ty just shines through everything. I will keep you all in my prayers and pray that you get that trial!!! Sending big hugs, Colleen
Beck - it's okay to feel what you are feeling and it is also okay that your friends and family know it too. They too are having bad days, feeling sad too....maybe it is okay for everyone to share their feelings...things are fun and great for you now, and you should not have to make believe they are.
This disease *****...it really does.
I hope that they are able to find a trial that will keep the tumors from growing and keep you free from pain.
I think of you and Ty all the time.
Love,
Pam
Dearest Becky,
This is a time you should focus on yourself. I know you've done so well to be strong, wear that beautiful smile of yours and make everyone around you feel comfortable. But you are having a rough time and it's OK to let people know that. You feel like cr@p, you're angry and exhausted. You have every right to cry and grumble. And if people who love you really want to know how you feel, let 'em have it. :-)
This isn't a sore toe we're talking about, trying to walk without limping. So take the time to rest, to do whatever helps. And part of being brave is letting others know what you need. We live too far away to be much help but you know the women on this board understand. So you always have their love (mine too of course). We're never to busy to tell you that.
hugs, irene
I have never known such a BRAVE and STRONG person like you Becky!!! You have had to struggle and fight for many things and I wish we could help take away some of your pain. We are all here, behind you, praying for you and wishing for better days for you and your precious Ty!!!!! I hope YOU know how amazing YOU are......the rest of us know!!!!
(((hugs)))
Heidi
Dear Becky,
My heart goes out to you, for all the suffering you're going through.
I can only pray that your health improves, and you have a better quality of life.
God help you and give you the strength.
Jane