Can it be PTSD?

[helpless407]

I have been sexually abused in my childhood by a member of my family.  Sexually abused by 2 other people.  Emotionally, physically & verbally abused through out my life.  I have always quit my job cause I'm scared making mistakes and also scared being raped.  I always had this type of anger inside and feeling depressed.  Its been a while my symptoms got worse; I have no energy, always exhausted.  I'm thinking about the same thing since I wake until I fall asleep.  I have nightmares, flashbacks, no concentration, I have been always a smoker but now I smoke like a chimney.  I would like to quit smoking but I can't at this present time.  I started drinking from one glass to two glasses of wine every night at supper time and I always hated drinking but I recently decided to stop this behavior.  I sometimes feel suicidal.  Is it PTSD or BDP?

[paranoid_cataclysm]

I went through the same things as narla and was also diagnosed with PTSD.  I suffer almost the same things as well, bing constant anxiety and I can have panic attacks and sometimes I have bouts of insomnia and some other things.  I used to get sad for no reason but I shut the door on that somehow.

[helpless407]

Hi Denise,

Thanks for replying to my post.  I'm sorry you also went through a hard time.  I hope your feeling better.  Hugs.

[narla]

I was also sexually abused as a child by a family member and other adults,I was also bullied going through school.My doctor has diagnosed me with PTSD,I suffer anxiety,panic attacks,depression and insomnia,only a doctor or psychiatrist can diagnose this disorder.

Denise  

[helpless407]

I forgot to mention; I also have lots of anxiety, I tend to eat a lot, I started gettting headaches or migraines on a daily basis.  I feel tense, my neck & shoulders hurt.  I did try committing suicide due to the fact that I've been bullied a few years ago and its still continuing and this destroyed me.  I don't know how to trust again. Will I ever be the same again?