Hey everyone..can any of you relate with me??

[Wants2SeeClearly_09]

Hey everyone, well first off let me say hi, and this is really been a rough year for me. I have had PTSD for a long time, like for the past twenty years or more, and I am only 28. Before a major loss  last year, I was doing way better then I am now. I was able to work and function at least to what I thought was normal, as in being a mom and wife.
After my loss, which was three family members in one week just about, and close like my dad, brother and my aunt...i have had serious bouts of anxiety and PTSD..like nightmares and memories of places I never knew I lived and situations surfacing that were so horrible as a child. I have blurred vision alot and just whether its pure fatigue or insomnia.I just wanted any one that could relate with me, to just idk i feel alone, but such a loss and i feel as if i have regressed alot now mentally as in dealing with these memories an such. It has been difficult bc I really dont have support at all, even with all the funerals and things my husband really doesnt understand, and thinks im crazy. and it really hurts bc i just want him to understand me.....thanks for reading, it means alot.

[margypops]

Welcome,you certainly have been through a lot ,I am not surprised you have PTSD from reading your thread I would say you have all the classic signs, I believe it takes time but I also believe we can come through it., you are not crazy, its hard for others sometimes to understand.For me I realised it was my thoughts that made me feel bad, and I would tell myslef NO dont go there when ever the negative thoughts popped up which was all the time if I wasnt occupied. I read a book called' Slowing  Down to the Speed of life" in it it says ...Its Impossible to experience any negative feeling without first creating a corresponding negative thought. I found this to be true ,so each time I started to obsess I would make an effort to switch it off,its not easy but you can get into a habit of doing just that, I found that if I obsessed enough I actually started to feel physically sick ,panic attacks, etc so I determined not to let it happen,. I do still get some difficult times but I am able to stop my mind going there. I also use visualiastion to help me sleep,and stop anxiety. Good luck I am thinking about writing about my experiences, they are still ongoing but better than they were.