I can completely relate. This pregnancy has been a rough one for me also. First trimester I was very sick and was a stay at home mom with a toddler and in a new town. I found myself depressed and angry a lot of the time. Spent a lot of time by myself. Back in Florida now and around family again, due any day. When we moved back down here a couple of months ago. I finally had the courage to discusse my depression issue with my doctor and possibly medication. After a therapy assessment and speaking to him, he decided to prescribe me Bupropian(wellbutrin). An antidepressant deemed safe for pregnant woman. I'm taking that now and feeling much better, I smile again. I feel like a fog has been lifted and I can gather my thoughts. I didn't know what else to do. I've felt guilty about taking the medication but after speaking to other moms and hearing their stories, they have helped me overcome the guilt. It's good to seek help. Don't neglect yourself. Like my doctor told me, if I'm feeling this way now, I'm at a high risk for suffering from post partum depression and that things could get worse, my family would suffer as well from my unhappiness. I do NOT want that and I know you don't. So just talk to your doctor. Discuss your options. I'm not by any means telling you that you need medication, just that it's worked for me. The best of luck to you! X
I felt exactly the same and I am now 15 weeks and 4 days still get my days where my bf will make a innocent comment and I just bus burst into tears and ignore him for an hour hating myself.... It helps to just cry and let out all out..