Depress

[Patriciaaa02]

Idk if it's my hormones but I've been feeling really sad all I wana do is cry and cry my head is pounding I'm extremely stressed out I feel like I'm already failing as a mom my bf and I relationship feels like its drifting apart I feel like our relationship is more like a friendship now I feel like we are just roommates even tho we sleep together but we haven't had a sex lately and I'm sexually frustrated and he doesn't give me affection I've told him all this and he says he's stressed out and tired he works 7 days a weeks 5am to late evening so I understand but I need love and affection from him and than yesterday we kept arguing and he called me a dumb a$$ and he always does that when he's really mad than feels bad apologizes and kisses up to me and tries to make up
For it but it doesn't make me forget I usually have a come back to what he says but now that I'm pregnant I cry like a baby about anything & I just feel miserable with so much anger in me its not just him I'm sad how I'm broke and can't get my daughter all the things I want without having to ask my bf I hate depending on him I've been independent since the age of 16 now I just feel like I have nothing to offer my daughter bc I hardly work anymore now I never cared about school I dropped out 11th grade I know dumb of me !!! But now I'm so upset about it and I cry bc I wish I would of finished and idk how Ima do it with a baby now I need to offer my daughter the best and I can't with no education and the bs jobs i be having I just feel like such a bad mom already I always cry about it sometimes I wish I never existed I'm such a good for nothing only thing that keeps me going is my unborn child that I love so much already sorry for long post but I have no one to talk to

[ericaranae]

Your not losing your mind your sharing your body with your baby its hard...and awe hes gona be great with her thats how my man is always trying to do things to help for when baby comes... And school its hard but your daughter will not know so you have plenty of years to get it...i have the same issue didnt want to leave my baby but i went and actually enjoyed how i felt like i was learning and all i want is my kids to be proud of me so daddy watched her and id come home and give her lots of love...she was 7 months when i started and now im having problems because im worried about going back after my son i dnt wana leave my handsome lol so i feel you on that. But just look at options they have online classes for ged then just go take the test at a community college or something...

[Patriciaaa02]

Yea I think pregnancy is affecting him I thought I was suppose to nest but apparently he's the one nesting lol  he's being cleaning the house inside and out like crazy moving alllll the furniture around washed our carpet cleaned the baby's room set up her bassinet and a few things in her room I didn't even know until today I happened to open my baby's room just to look at her stuff bc i do that sometimes and just sit there and imagine her with me and I was like wowww when he do this lol & I told him my doctor said the baby is head down so ever since than he hasn't had sex wit me bc he said he Gona poke her head I tried telling him
He's not hurting her but he thinks I'm lying and just being horny -__- is should of never told him!!!  & yea i want to go back to school but ugh I don't want to leave my child with no one I pray to God to please help me bc I'm loosing my mind

[ericaranae]

Girl ima tell you its pregnancy with my 1st i became so insecure that i was constantly on my man picking fights because i thought we were drifting and i was so sad so id just be on him like crazy and that made things worse and when they work long hours you do feel lonely but im sure he loves you so much... I also find wen you get further along men seem to start and get scared their biggest fear is to fail you and their child so they go through some emotional parts too...i as well dropped out in 11th grade but luckily here where i live they have a ged program that was 3 hrs every tues and thursday i would leave my babygirl with her dad because it was at night i didnt finish because i got put on bedrest...you can do it with a baby just wait a lil bit you got this girl you are not failing your daughter you will be the best momma

[Patriciaaa02]

Same here I feel like our relationship is going down the drain bc idk how to control my emotions I can't control it I cry uncontrollably most of the time and I know it bothers him even if he doesn't say something and sometimes I just feel like leaving him for no reason I just can't ever think right that's why I don't do nothing with my life bc I have no type of motivation I just want to sleep I feel extremely exhausted all the time but now pregnancy makes it worst and I feel like no one understands me or my pain I just hate my life sometimes and it been like this since I was child I just never tell anyone

[3_10_15_first_time_mommy]

Ik exactly how you feel im kinda going through the same thing. I've had depression since i was 12. Ive always had to deal with it but now that im pregnant its the worst its ever been. It gets in between me and my bf and i feel like our relationship is on its way down the drain cuz i dont know how to control my own emotions. Its really rough sometimes but you just have to find reasons to stay happy. Think about your daughter and how much you already love her. Your growing a little miracle. Life is to short to be sad you gotta just be strong and push through it. Talk to someone if you need to and just remember it will get better.

[Patriciaaa02]

  If it was up to me I wouldn't get out of bed and just cry but I have to get up and do what I gotta do, u sound like such a strong person I wish I was a strong person I'm so weak and let everything get to me :( I hate admitting it but now that I'm pregnant its so much worst

[boytime]

I'm so sorry to hear this... But you need to be strong mama .. I was a teen mom and left school when I was 17. I struggled and fought with my baby's father, I worked 2 part time jobs.. I missed school a lot.. I went through the state program and they funded me money for childcare. I got my GED a couple years later. I started back to college after 10 years (idk why I waited for so long) but I felt the need to go back to school. Now I'm a nursing major, 30 yrs old now and struggling still..I have 3 kids and I'm on the deans list , which is very hard. I still have issues with my SO.. But I put him on the back burner.. Kids first, then school, then him... Makes me feel good that I can say that I will be somewhere someday.. I felt depressed at times but I always said I have to keep going for my children ... They will appreciate it one day- stay strong and don't let anything in you way.. It may sound silly but the state can really help you... After all said... You pay your taxes and that's what they are there for .., keep your head up and be strong-- go back to school when your ready... Enjoy life and your pregnancy.. Try not to stress because the last months of pregnancy only get tougher..., sorry so long hope you come out of this feeling....