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Depression...
I go through serious mood swings due to my bipolar AND now being 32 weeks pregnant. I have spent more time worrying than I have being excited lately though. During pregnancy I am not aloud to take my mood stabilizer(seraquil) throughout the day like I have for the past 5 years. Im used to not taking it at this point but I am definetly not mentally stable . I miss how I used to live and how beautiful my body used to be . Im terrified my figures going to stay this way and my vaginas gonna get all stretched out permanently. I miss being able to feel sexy and dress up for my man when we would have sex. Now i just feel fat weighing in at 165 pounds. My social life is gonna go out the window I already know that but to be honest my fiance is my bestfriend and lover so im not too worried about that change . I just want a glass of wine and a nice bubble bath is that so much to ask for. I hope im not being selfish feeling this way . I know my child is always going to come first and I already love him more than myself. Im just lost . help
Wah it's normal to think about your body and what it will be like! You've been through a lot and after birth body will feel a bit strange. You'll be sore all over, your stomach will look like a half deflated balloon you may even have stitches down below. But that's all immediately afterwards! And tbh you'll hardly notice.
When I had my daughter I had 32 stitches down below with only gas and air for the pain but I was holding my baby so didn't feel a thing. I breastfed so not only did my uterus (and stomach) shrink down but I was in my pre-pregnncy jeans day 10. Also when you breastfeed your body produces Oxytocin so you're flooded with happy hormones. If you don't/ can't breastfeed your body will still go back to normal. It may take a year it may only take a few months but it WILL. And to be very honest it won't hardly matter to you when your baby is there, they have a wonderful power of just absorbing your every thought.
I was also worried what my body would look like. The day after I got home from the hospital I took a shower and I looked in the mirror and cried. Not at how bad I looked but how proud of it and I was. I was so immensely proud and overwhelmed by what MY body had done I cried, I was so happy and also so sorry to it for every bad word I'd said to myself before I wanted to take back every chubby and thunder thigh comment I'd ever made because it made and delivered my daughter!
Not everyone will have the same experience but trust me you won't feel sad about any of that. You will have a bath and a glass of wine post birth and it will be lovely. You'll also take showers with your bbaby in a bouncer watching you either way it will all be OK.
Oh and my last bit of advice do your kegels everyday! And don't look at your hookah for at least 3months it will look different the first few weeks but it'll go back to normal soon enough!
Good luck with your baby and try to relax these last few weeks, they'll be gone in a flash!!
When I had my daughter I had 32 stitches down below with only gas and air for the pain but I was holding my baby so didn't feel a thing. I breastfed so not only did my uterus (and stomach) shrink down but I was in my pre-pregnncy jeans day 10. Also when you breastfeed your body produces Oxytocin so you're flooded with happy hormones. If you don't/ can't breastfeed your body will still go back to normal. It may take a year it may only take a few months but it WILL. And to be very honest it won't hardly matter to you when your baby is there, they have a wonderful power of just absorbing your every thought.
I was also worried what my body would look like. The day after I got home from the hospital I took a shower and I looked in the mirror and cried. Not at how bad I looked but how proud of it and I was. I was so immensely proud and overwhelmed by what MY body had done I cried, I was so happy and also so sorry to it for every bad word I'd said to myself before I wanted to take back every chubby and thunder thigh comment I'd ever made because it made and delivered my daughter!
Not everyone will have the same experience but trust me you won't feel sad about any of that. You will have a bath and a glass of wine post birth and it will be lovely. You'll also take showers with your bbaby in a bouncer watching you either way it will all be OK.
Oh and my last bit of advice do your kegels everyday! And don't look at your hookah for at least 3months it will look different the first few weeks but it'll go back to normal soon enough!
Good luck with your baby and try to relax these last few weeks, they'll be gone in a flash!!
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That was supposed to be hoo-ha not hookah haha damn aurocorrect!
Thank you so much . I know it will take time to heal and I honestly feel bad even complaining because its suppose to be a beautiful thing. Im creating life and I shouldn't be worried about a few stupid stretch marks or a crazy looking "hoo-ha" . Haha its just nice to know Im not the only one who thinks about their appearance I feel like I should just give up trying til after the babys born its added unnecessary stress fixating on my size. Sooner than later I will be back to normal or as normal as I will get and hearing how fast you snapped back gives me hope. Thanks again for taking the time to give me some insight it means alot to me.
I think just worrying about your body is selfish. The most important thing should be your baby's wellbeing you can lose the weight besides that you will obviously lose pounds after giving birth. I thing you should enjoy this few weeks left and do something that could help you improve a little your self estime like going to the beauty salon you can take that bubble bath with some sparkling water with lemon . Take a photo session with your husband. I hope you feel better soon. Btw you vagina won't stretch out that's just a myth It can actually be the opposite ;-)
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Thank you I cant wait for the baby to get here I just think I am a bit over emotional. I appreciate hearing some one elses feedback I needed to know Im not completely insane.
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