I got this way when I got married too but this time it's a different depression. My father was killed when I was 13 years old. And it's really starting to get to me that my dad never got to see me grow up, graduate high school, start college, get married and now he isn't going to see me graduate college and now especially he isn't going to see his first grandchild born. It's really starting to get to me how much I miss my dad. Anyone else have a parent who passed when they were young? I don't care what anyone says it doesn't get easier to deal with. It just gets easier to try and put your feelings aside but when you can't put them aside any longer it builds up and is just worse.