depressed

[everley2014]

Ladies please talk to me.  I've never been so depressed in my entire life.  I started cutting again.  I just keep wishing i was dead. I keep wanting to commit suicide. I've never felt this strongly about suicide before. I don't know what to do! I'm 17 years old and 25+3 days pregnant.

[Mommybri_mike]

I'll be 17 and a mommy also. And I've always had depression but it seems the 4 months that I've been pregnant have helped me in a lot of ways. And I'm grateful for that. You have to think about that baby inside of you, if you die that beating heart inside of your stomach will die too. So you have to be a strong mother for that baby. Get yourself help ASAP. And tell your doctor your feelings, they will help you feel better but don't cut, don't hurt yourself...that baby needs his/her mommy and is feeling your pain. Be a fighter and stay strong, we're  all here for you.

[doulamommy]

Do you have some support? Someone who knows your self harm history? You need to take care of yourself. You're gonna be okay. Pregnancy hormones are awful and can make mild depression worse and bad depression catastrophic. You absolutely need to check in with your Dr/midwife. It's better to be on an antidepressant than to continue living under the cloud of depression. You'll make it through! Sometimes we all need a little help. No shame in that.

[everley2014]

Thanks.. :(

[doulamommy]

I've cut this pregnancy. The guilt is awful. When I was pregnant with my daughter I convinced myself that any pain I felt, she would feel, and I managed not to cut at all during that pregnancy. This time has been harder but I've been lucky to have support.
You need to talk to your doctor/midwife and tell him/her about your self harm history. Remember that cuts can get infected abd the infection can get into your blood stream and cross the placenta to your baby. Get therapy. Get medication. Get what you need to help you be happy and healthy.

[specialmom]

Sweetie, if you are thinking about suicide, you need to talk to someone. They have prevention lines and numbers that you can call.  Your doctor will want to know.  Hormones can cause someone prone to depression to drift further into it.  And if you are cutting, it would be best for you to be in therapy.  Some women DO absolutely need to be treated for their depression while pregnant.  There is NO shame in this.  Better to get help sweetie.  If you feel like you might hurt yourself tonight, talk to your mom, sister, best friend OR call a suicide prevention number where people are trained to talk to you.  And then tomorrow, please please call your ob.  good luck sweetie

[ItsSimplyKayla]

Talk to your Dr ASAP.