i am getting depressed

[shier]

i keep seeing newborn babies n pregnant women around me n i get extremely upset that i am not.. i tried to avoid looking at them, i tired all means to think of something else, but it nvr helps.. i still cant believe wat happened to my last pregnancy... y everyone around me gets pregnant so easily n here i am sobbing uncontrolably n it feels like its nvr gona happen to me again... i dun wish any of my frens getting hurt like how i did... BUT Y ME? i think it has also affected my marriage n relationship with my hubby... i am almost ready to leave him so tat he can find another woman who can give him happiness n a family of his own.. i felt i broke his heart n left him in misery...

[shier]

i also hate it when pple tells me that i am still young n i will get pregnant again soon.. no ones really know that it has left the deepest cut inside me n whenever frens n relatives tells me "both of u r still young etc", its like sprinkling salt into my wound!  even when i approached my previous gynea that i haf problems getting my menses regular even though its been a yr after i lost my baby, he simply ask me y i am so anxious for another baby? how dare him ask me Y? i decided NVR to go back there.. ive tried to be patient b4, but wat i get was numerous frens telling me "Im pregnant~!" or inviting me to baby showers for the past yr or calling to inform me its a boy or a ger at their latest ultrasound...

i lost my baby girl into my pregnanacy of 21wks to spina bifeda.  it was supposed to be jus a routine fetal assesment but it was a day i nvr forget... when i was informed, i had onli 3days left with my baby girl.. i blamed no one for this..

[JoyRenee]

Every woman who has a fertility problem, cannot have children, or has suffered from losing a child (no matter how early pregnant or even after they were born) go through this. It's normal. It's part of the Grieving Process. You need to allow yourself to grieve so that you can move forward. It is not reason to leave your husband and I hope it doesn't come to that.

[1hope4mom]

As worriedbabe has said u have nothing to feel guilty about. I've been having some of the same feelings. I just lost a baby as I was nine wks preggers. I don't understand why, I just know that my babies are in heaven, I've lost two. One last year n this one this past May. I hurts like no one knows. Stick in there with your husband, God will give you a baby. Just trust in him. I cried a lot when my husband kept saying everything will be ok. They just don't know. Some men just lack the sensitivity chip that we have. It just takes us longer to move on. Just trust in God and try prayer it has helped me alot and I even feel like he is going to bless me n hubby with a baby I just don't know when. Time heals a broken heart babe so hang in there n trust God, he'll give you a baby n fix a marriage. I have been doubtfull, but just the past couple of days I've been feeling less doubtfull and having more faith in God and it really seems to help. Also try taking vitamins. I've continued to take 1 prenantal vitamin a day, n 1 omega-3 vitamin. It's something I hope helps n gives my skin that extra glow. I will pray for you if you don't mind.

[worriedbabe]

totally normal. i couldn't bear looking at heavily pregnant women and newborns from 9 1/2 weeks to 18 weeks with this pregnancy because it was a threatened miscarriage. i have no idea what happened with your last pregnancy but i'm betting you have NOTHING to feel guilty about. you need to talk things over with someone you love or a therapist, sweetie. and, if you've been pregnant once...you can get pregnant again.