Reading now...
I honestly don't know what to tell you, other than it sounds like you still do care about him. I know it's probably not the first or last thing you want to hear right now -- but just look at the big picture. He's pushed a lot of his friends away in the last several years now, and the little amount of family that he DOES have, he has managed to not get along with them for the most part. Where they have pushed him out of their lives basically, you have allowed him to stay in yours. Does that make sense?
Don't get me wrong here, I think you're a strong woman to have put up with the deck of cards that he's dealt you over the years and even stronger for allowing him to stay in your house if is his mental situation elevator only goes to the 3rd floor in an 11 stories building....but you have to do what is best for you. You have to do what is best for him, and for the children as well. I say this, because allowing him to stay in the house when you're seeing the other man is basically leading him on. NOT saying this rudely, just giving the insight, you know? But all in all, it does say something about the entire situation if he has been that bad to you and yet he is still sleeping on the couch in your home.
He has no where to go. He pushed all his friends away in the last ten years, the family he does have here he doesn't get along with, and his mother lives six states away.
As far as any updates on his mental stability and how that's all going, you are welcome to send me a friend request and take a look at the last few journal entries. I really am stuck between a rock and a hard place right now.
Does your husband have anywhere else that he can go other than on the couch there in the house, by any chance? Where is his family, or did you all move away from them when you got married?
If you feel like a prisoner in your own home, I would suggest sitting down with him [again] and telling him about this. If his mental stability might get in the way of anything, then you need to keep this in mind, especially when there ar kids involved.
I mentioned them in the subsequent comments, so I just added them all into the intitial post here.
Not sure why you'd want to delete the post. You stated that you posted this one in attempt to keep the discussion going I thought... Oh well.
If you're looking for someone to tell you the differences with this post in comparison to your last, it's simple... In the above post, you share a little more details with us about the past as well as what's apparently going on as of recently. How he treated you, his mental stability [or lack there of] and other things that you didn't mention in the post beforehand.
I agree with imanaddict that there's really nothing more to discuss. You asked for advice and we gave it to you. I just don't understand what more you're looking for with this, as you've already seemingly made your decision within the situation.
I too wish you all the best.
Hi...I've requested Medhelp to remove it. If they don't just let it run it's course and don't respond...good luck.
how do I delete this post?
There isn't much left to say that hasn't already been said. There has been some wonderful advice given on this post as well as the last. I'm sure I'm not alone when I say that I do hope everything works out for your family and you all will heal with time. This sort of thing is never easy for all parties involved but you will get past it one day. I wish you all the best...
I'm not really looking for answers, just keeping the discussion going. And no one (so far) has been able to tell me HOW this post is different from the last. It's the same story, just updated with the current events and some of the revelations I came to in the last post.
I remember the original post that occured sometime earlier last week. I hate to break it to you, but I have to agree with some of the other members here and say to you that this post is completely different from the one we all read last week. Although I'm not sure how the story could've changed that much from one week to the next when it dealt with the same man and/or situation -- but okay....?
My response to you would be similar to the one I left for you last week. You came on the boards last week and asked for help, but you'd already made your mind up five years prior to even coming onto the boards by falling into another man's arms while having an affair behind your husband's back. Now you've ventured back to the boards [a mere week later] to share the same story, only a different version. You want to know what to do, even though you've already stated to each and every one of us what you've done already by allowing him to come back into the home instead of sleeping in his truck or at a neighbors' home nearby. If you're that worried about his actions against you or anyone else within the house, you shouldn't have made the initial decision to let him back into the household. Don't take offense to my words [again] and instead, merely view them for their worth -- nothing more and nothing less.
I understand that you're only trying to be kind in the matter. From reading your post above, it sounds like even though you hate to admit it, you know that going behind his back with another man for the past five years was nothing less than in the wrong...and because of that, you've allowed him back in the safety of his own home. BUT... I'd like to try and understand what sort of answers you're looking for at this current time. You want to know what to do, but you're telling us what you've done already.
I hope that makes sense. Stay strong and try and get through this the best you know how...
No need to defend yourself to me or even respond for that matter. I was noting the deleted posts. Other than that, as I said, I am done with this post so no need to get yer panties in a wad. Good luck whatever you decide.
I agree with Mami, He has to accept what he can't change and move foward with his life. Give him a time limit and all parties to move forward with there lives.
We all sound like a broken record..LOL!
wilflower he isn't your responsibility. I understand completely the feelings of guilt you have but you aren't helping him or yourself if you stay with him because you feel bad for leaving a loveless marriage. He has to help himself. He also could be using these feelings that you have to continue to control you. It's obviously working. Give him that time limit and get on with your life so he can get on with his.
OK I wasn't going to say anything, but come on. It is obvoius from the post that was deleted and this one you have used this guy from the beginning, he was someone that showed you compasion and you took advantage of that.You made a baby THEN got married and then cheated on him, so he is the bad guy? I would truly bet that his "abuse" is a direct reflection of how you have treated him. If you didn't find him physically attractive then why did you get pregnant out of wedlock, marry him and then make another baby? I agree with Teko, my sympathies go to the children. Yes you are cold hearted and a few other choice names.
First of all I don't know what the guy killing his wife and kids has to do with my situation. Second of all, I don't see how you think that marrying someone because you think they are a good person and genuinely care about them is "all the wrong reasons". I do love my husband, whether you think I do or not. I just don't have romantic feelings for him anymore because of the abuse he put me through. I'm not going to sit her and defend myself to you though. I just want anyone who reads this post to know that I am not a bad person. The reason I HAVE guilt is because I care about him. I could have been a cold-hearted ***** and just left him high and dry, took the kids, you name it. But I am sticking by his side, putting my own happiness at bay until he gets his head together. All this, after he made the last ten years of my life a living hell.
I agree with Jo and my response to the deleted post was also negative if you wanted to take it that way. I considered it to be honest, myself, but am supposing someone else thought different. Oh well,
We had a guy here kill his wife and 5 kids. He was considered to be the perfect daddy and hubby. You took this dude back after his mental escapades because you felt guilty, not because you cared. You married this dude for all the wrong reasons to begin with and then when you saw the error of your ways, wanted to yank his life out from under him. Yep anyone, who read those posts that got deleted for whatever reason, knows and remembers. My sympathies go to the children. Nuff said.
I understand. I am interested, however, in how you think my second post has changed from the first. Or if anyone else has any insight on this, I'd be interested to hear that as well.
I remember your first post very well,your second post has changed a lot and i remember all of the answers you recieved, most which were very negative towards you, and you got real upset first impresions seem to be lasting ones, so i will not comment on this post, i am quite sure you remember the answers you received,i also gave a negative answer,your post is so different, that i shall have to pass as my answer also upset you, and others will remember what each one said, and if i changed my mind now what would that make me i shall wish you luck jo
I think at some point your kids will understand why you did it. Who knows, perhaps they will be happier for it. It's not an easy choice but it's the best choice for you both. Even though your husband can't see it now.
Well like I said I feel trapped in my own house but I know that I have to live with that for now for the sake of my husband and children's mental health. I'm a lot like my mother in many ways in that aspect. She stayed for many years "for the kids". The only problem is she didn't realize that staying so long actually hurt her children. I have severe trust issues because of my step-father not to mention very low self-esteem. I'm still self-conscious, but I don't let men walk all over me anymore. Neither one of my younger brothers know how to take care of themselves and they are in their mid 20's. I know what I have to do, I just have to do it in the right way with the least amount of drama possible.
sorry, me & my specialty typo's....I meant "I agree that your husband has to bite his tonge around his daughters for ...." How are you coming along with everything that has happened so far?
Judy, there's really no fighting going on. He is trying so hard to keep me right now that he's agreeing with everything I say. Last Thurs when he freaked out on me was the only time that things got escalated. I'm not sure if she thinks we are ok now or what. I know I need to talk to her, I just don't want to bring anything up when things are so indefinite right now. I can't really say anything to her about it until I tell him anyway.
This is just a suggestion, it wouldn't hur to talk to your daughters teacher or school counselor to just have a chat with and reassure her not to worry, that mom and dad are having differences, but it's being workend out, so that she see's that although mom and dad have been fighting, it's not her fault and no matter the outcome, everything is going to fall into place. I agree that your husband has bite his tongue around his daughters for the sake of their emotional well being.