So I have not spoken to my ex who also happens to be my child's father in about a month or so. Its not that he hasn't been there for her its just that when he comes around I do not open my mouth and say two words to him. I do not entertain any types of small talks with him. I am not angry at him anymore, I just don't want to speak with him. However, I would hate for this to continue for a very long time. I am one of those people who thinks that while you must not shelter your kids from the world, you must not bother them with adult problems and so I would not like for her to grow up thinking I resent her father. She doesn't need to bother herself with that.
However, and yes I know it is extremely immature on my end I know that but I cannot help but feeling like if I speak to him, then he's won! He needs to know that his stupidity is not something that can be brushed aside and that it is not ok and that I will not brush aside his nonsense. But I love my baby and I feel like I need to do what is best for her! So I am feeling like I need to call him and at least say Happy New Year but everytime I pick up the phone to call him, my heart starts beating super fast and my hands start to shake and so I don't bother.
Do you guys think its necessary to speak to him? Or it doesn't matter if I keep avoiding him or not?