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Sexless Marriage
I am seriously considering leaving my marriage. I know my husband is a good man with a kind heart, but there is a great divide in our sex life. We have been together about 10 years We have a 5 year old daughter. As is typical, in the beginning of our relationship, things were hot. Sex was frequent and amazing.. It would be easy to presume that once our daughter was born, the flames subsided. That is not the case. Those flames started to dwindle down before I even became pregnant. I was vocal about my concerns and he would make excuses. Excuses varied from fear of getting me pregnant to his own insecurities of being over weight. Jump ahead 9 months. Our daughter was born. Sex life only continued to dwindle down. I got an IUD implanted so another pregnancy would not be a fear. We both gained quite a bit of weight, but we were happy. We enjoyed our daughter. Eventually, I started to get frustrated and voiced my concerns about the lack of sex. His selfishness when sex would happen. I explained that I don't expect to orgasm every single time we have sex, but when sex is only once ever 2-3 months, It had better count.
I would let him know that I had come to the resolve that I am just a much more sexual person than he is and he was not keeping up with me. After we would have these talks he would promise me that we will work on it, and that things will get better. Usually they would for a few weeks and then fall right back into a rut routine. I must also add that during this time, he stopped touching me, kissing me, embracing me, flirting with me and even complimenting me. There was literally no spark between us. By now, we were also planning our wedding. I remember numerous conversations with him where I expressed my worry that I was marrying into a sexless, unaffectionate relationship. He assured me (as he had before) that things would change. . As usual, they did briefly, but nothing earth shattering. We got Married.... My new husband didn't even have sex with me on my wedding night..... Enough said, right? I should have run while I still could. We are married.. We have spurts of good, consistent sex, but only after I have to ask for it and complain that we are in a rut. During all these conversations he would have varying excuses, some of them re-hashed. Weight, being tired, our daughter being in the house but eventually a new excuse came about. He confessed to me that he felt he didn't have a strong erection. That he had felt a change where his penis didn't get as hard anymore. I was floored. I hadn't noticed anything. I was content with his erection during sex. I didn't notice a change. I tried to assure him that I was satisfied with him and my only complaint was that he didn't give me enough of it. That I wanted more of what he had to give. He remained unaffectionate and unable to even reach out and touch me unless prompted to do so. I sit here and write this painfully reminded that I wish my husband would just reach out and grab my *** some time. It never happens. I also want to highlight a point in time that really stands out to me. We both lost a lot of weight. We had a complete lifestyle change. We looked great, we felt better and gained confidence. You would think we would have banged each others brains out, right? Nope. that whole period of time, over 6 months, no sex. He never even touched me. I made a point of not reaching out to him to see how long he would go without. After 6 plus months, I finally started a conversation asking what was missing from our relationship? He mentioned sex but had no explanation as to why there had been such a lull. After that, I tried a new approach, I tried to get him to talk about it as much as possible. I wanted him to tell me his fantasies, his desires, to confess to me what really turns him on. He had no answer for me. He could not tell me he likes legs in heels, or girls in thongs or porn or girl on girl, or sex toys, or sex in inappropriate places, or tying each other up, or a specific sex position or a certain place he liked to be touched or really any naughty thing he would like me to do, other than a **. That's all I got from him. He likes **'s. I actually did already know that. I would do it for him whenever asked, but he never asks. So, I decided to take things into my own hands (almost literally) and I ordered some sex toys. I asked him to look at the website and pick something out. He was unable to do so. Couldn't find a single thing he was interested in. He told me to order what I wanted so I did. That package is still in his top dresser drawer, unopened. That is where he put it when I handed it to him to look at. I know he knows its there but he avoids it like the plague. When I bring it up, his only response is that he doesn't want to be replaced by a toy. I am baffled by this because I make it clear to him that I would prefer him every time, but he wont give himself to me. So Ill jump ahead to this past Valentines Day. We had sex twice that weekend. WooHoo!!! But to my dismay, it was all about him. Wham, Bam, Thank You Mam. No climax for me. Last one before that was Thanksgiving night. I remember because for once, it was amazing. For once, completely unprompted, he took me in his mouth and ran his tongue over my clit until I came. I came hard. It was good. Thank god it was good, because apparently it had to last. So back to Valentines Day. Sex twice... No orgasm for me. No attention to my clit. No hands on me for foreplay. Just in, and out. 10 minutes tops. At least he got me flowers, right? So lastly, this week, I started a text conversation with him to open a dialog that would hopefully jump start us again. He drops a bomb on me. He feels he has a medical problem. No just a weak erection, but sometimes the inability to even get an erection. He tells me that there were past instances when he wanted to reach out and touch me and had the desire to have sex but that it was a "No-Go"... He feels that those couple instances are what is deterring him now. He is afraid it will happen again. He stressed that just having this conversation was embarrassing and that he didn't have the courage to see a doctor. I had no idea what to say except to ensure him that he should never be embarrassed with me, that he can tell me anything. I asked him to let me try and help him the best I could. Through the day, I tried to flirt with him telling him that when he got home, there was a ** waiting for him. He got his ** that night. No, reciprocation for me. But that's ok, we are working on him. While he was asleep that night, I snuck my hand down his boxers and played a bit. No trouble with an erection popping up there. That morning I made sure to check, morning wood popped up. I had several more conversations reminding him that I have been waiting since November (remember, that amazing oral sex on Thanksgiving? ). He swears he knows. He swears he will take care of me, but here we are, Wednesday. He has yet to put a hand on me. He has yet to kiss me. He has yet to even look me in the eyes and say he loves me. I write this in tears because I have myself convinced that its not him, its me. I don't turn him on. He is not attracted to me. When a man is attracted to a woman, he reaches out and touches her, he gets caught looking at her. He tells her how beautiful she is. I get none of that from him and I am fading. See its not just about the physical intimacy, there is very little emotional intimacy. We love our daughter, we parent very well together. We work well as team, we make each other laugh. He is kind. We mostly argue only over unimportant things. Where we fail so tragically is in that spark. We lost it. We have rekindled it briefly and lost it again. Its just not there anymore and I don't think its normal to have to work so hard at keeping it there. I feel like it should come naturally. I am lost. He is lost. I am frustrated, lonely and horny and feel like I have no where to turn for answers.
I would let him know that I had come to the resolve that I am just a much more sexual person than he is and he was not keeping up with me. After we would have these talks he would promise me that we will work on it, and that things will get better. Usually they would for a few weeks and then fall right back into a rut routine. I must also add that during this time, he stopped touching me, kissing me, embracing me, flirting with me and even complimenting me. There was literally no spark between us. By now, we were also planning our wedding. I remember numerous conversations with him where I expressed my worry that I was marrying into a sexless, unaffectionate relationship. He assured me (as he had before) that things would change. . As usual, they did briefly, but nothing earth shattering. We got Married.... My new husband didn't even have sex with me on my wedding night..... Enough said, right? I should have run while I still could. We are married.. We have spurts of good, consistent sex, but only after I have to ask for it and complain that we are in a rut. During all these conversations he would have varying excuses, some of them re-hashed. Weight, being tired, our daughter being in the house but eventually a new excuse came about. He confessed to me that he felt he didn't have a strong erection. That he had felt a change where his penis didn't get as hard anymore. I was floored. I hadn't noticed anything. I was content with his erection during sex. I didn't notice a change. I tried to assure him that I was satisfied with him and my only complaint was that he didn't give me enough of it. That I wanted more of what he had to give. He remained unaffectionate and unable to even reach out and touch me unless prompted to do so. I sit here and write this painfully reminded that I wish my husband would just reach out and grab my *** some time. It never happens. I also want to highlight a point in time that really stands out to me. We both lost a lot of weight. We had a complete lifestyle change. We looked great, we felt better and gained confidence. You would think we would have banged each others brains out, right? Nope. that whole period of time, over 6 months, no sex. He never even touched me. I made a point of not reaching out to him to see how long he would go without. After 6 plus months, I finally started a conversation asking what was missing from our relationship? He mentioned sex but had no explanation as to why there had been such a lull. After that, I tried a new approach, I tried to get him to talk about it as much as possible. I wanted him to tell me his fantasies, his desires, to confess to me what really turns him on. He had no answer for me. He could not tell me he likes legs in heels, or girls in thongs or porn or girl on girl, or sex toys, or sex in inappropriate places, or tying each other up, or a specific sex position or a certain place he liked to be touched or really any naughty thing he would like me to do, other than a **. That's all I got from him. He likes **'s. I actually did already know that. I would do it for him whenever asked, but he never asks. So, I decided to take things into my own hands (almost literally) and I ordered some sex toys. I asked him to look at the website and pick something out. He was unable to do so. Couldn't find a single thing he was interested in. He told me to order what I wanted so I did. That package is still in his top dresser drawer, unopened. That is where he put it when I handed it to him to look at. I know he knows its there but he avoids it like the plague. When I bring it up, his only response is that he doesn't want to be replaced by a toy. I am baffled by this because I make it clear to him that I would prefer him every time, but he wont give himself to me. So Ill jump ahead to this past Valentines Day. We had sex twice that weekend. WooHoo!!! But to my dismay, it was all about him. Wham, Bam, Thank You Mam. No climax for me. Last one before that was Thanksgiving night. I remember because for once, it was amazing. For once, completely unprompted, he took me in his mouth and ran his tongue over my clit until I came. I came hard. It was good. Thank god it was good, because apparently it had to last. So back to Valentines Day. Sex twice... No orgasm for me. No attention to my clit. No hands on me for foreplay. Just in, and out. 10 minutes tops. At least he got me flowers, right? So lastly, this week, I started a text conversation with him to open a dialog that would hopefully jump start us again. He drops a bomb on me. He feels he has a medical problem. No just a weak erection, but sometimes the inability to even get an erection. He tells me that there were past instances when he wanted to reach out and touch me and had the desire to have sex but that it was a "No-Go"... He feels that those couple instances are what is deterring him now. He is afraid it will happen again. He stressed that just having this conversation was embarrassing and that he didn't have the courage to see a doctor. I had no idea what to say except to ensure him that he should never be embarrassed with me, that he can tell me anything. I asked him to let me try and help him the best I could. Through the day, I tried to flirt with him telling him that when he got home, there was a ** waiting for him. He got his ** that night. No, reciprocation for me. But that's ok, we are working on him. While he was asleep that night, I snuck my hand down his boxers and played a bit. No trouble with an erection popping up there. That morning I made sure to check, morning wood popped up. I had several more conversations reminding him that I have been waiting since November (remember, that amazing oral sex on Thanksgiving? ). He swears he knows. He swears he will take care of me, but here we are, Wednesday. He has yet to put a hand on me. He has yet to kiss me. He has yet to even look me in the eyes and say he loves me. I write this in tears because I have myself convinced that its not him, its me. I don't turn him on. He is not attracted to me. When a man is attracted to a woman, he reaches out and touches her, he gets caught looking at her. He tells her how beautiful she is. I get none of that from him and I am fading. See its not just about the physical intimacy, there is very little emotional intimacy. We love our daughter, we parent very well together. We work well as team, we make each other laugh. He is kind. We mostly argue only over unimportant things. Where we fail so tragically is in that spark. We lost it. We have rekindled it briefly and lost it again. Its just not there anymore and I don't think its normal to have to work so hard at keeping it there. I feel like it should come naturally. I am lost. He is lost. I am frustrated, lonely and horny and feel like I have no where to turn for answers.
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You mention all the wonderful things you both have in common. Embrace those. Find a way to deal with being horny and enjoy these moments where there is no tragety to separate him from you permanently. There comes a time.
Hon, I can't really say that is normal for guys. My husband doesn't need alcohol to perform or to become interested. Sounds like the alcohol makes him more uninhibited and he isn't so much in his "head" with this and that thus allowing him to perform.
It is sounding more and more like a psychological issue then an actual physical issue, however, it could be a physical issue causing the psych issue.
It is sounding more and more like a psychological issue then an actual physical issue, however, it could be a physical issue causing the psych issue.
after reading this, i got the distinct impression that he might want the second child because he might feel that you feel that you've essentially been cheated out of what might be considered a normal sex life, and that you might be considering (doing everything you can) and possibly moving on. Thwarted if you get pregnant.
Have you not gone to a marriage counselor to talk about this, one that can make suggestions that you and he can follow together? Sounds like he's into trying to get thing figured out, But you're right checking for the physical first. Best of luck to you both. Hopefully things work out for you both.
You made me laugh when you said that you didn't expected an orgasm every time... i made it quite clear early on that i wasn't interested unless it was mutually satisfying.
Have you not gone to a marriage counselor to talk about this, one that can make suggestions that you and he can follow together? Sounds like he's into trying to get thing figured out, But you're right checking for the physical first. Best of luck to you both. Hopefully things work out for you both.
You made me laugh when you said that you didn't expected an orgasm every time... i made it quite clear early on that i wasn't interested unless it was mutually satisfying.
I can still remember my husband looking at me with big eyes saying "do you need to orgasm Every Time?" hahahaha
That is a very interesting premise. I never considered that.
I know he loves me. I guess that would be his desperation to keep me?
Our sex in the beginning of our relationship was so amazing. It was always mutually satisfying. I just figured as you get older, have more responsibilities, that there isn't always a ton of a time most nights and quickies are acceptable.
I am happy just knowing he wants me, is turned on by me. I would be just fine with that 2-3 times a week and make time for my turn on the weekends.
Honestly, his intense attraction to me is one of the things that turned me on most about him / made me fall in love with him. I feel like I have been mourning the death of that spark for years........
Didn't get the lab work done this weekend. Hopefully next weekend for sure.
I know he loves me. I guess that would be his desperation to keep me?
Our sex in the beginning of our relationship was so amazing. It was always mutually satisfying. I just figured as you get older, have more responsibilities, that there isn't always a ton of a time most nights and quickies are acceptable.
I am happy just knowing he wants me, is turned on by me. I would be just fine with that 2-3 times a week and make time for my turn on the weekends.
Honestly, his intense attraction to me is one of the things that turned me on most about him / made me fall in love with him. I feel like I have been mourning the death of that spark for years........
Didn't get the lab work done this weekend. Hopefully next weekend for sure.
Londres70,
I don't know what outcome to hope for. Hormonal issue or Psychological issue? From what I have read about hormone replacement, it doesn't seem like that is a sure fix. Psychological, seems like it is so complicated....
We have never been to any type of counseling. Honestly, we have no other issues. I mean he can be a slob sometimes, and I have to get on him to pick up his shoes, put his plate in the dishwasher, but nothing that would threaten our marriage.
I tried really hard this weekend to express my interest in him. I tried to flirt and tell him what a good husband he is. I guess I was trying to build up his ego. I don't know if it helped at all. I am to the point now that I am afraid to initiate anything because I don't want to put him in an awkward place. So I just have to wait and see if it helps him get in the mood and initiate on his own.
I don't know what outcome to hope for. Hormonal issue or Psychological issue? From what I have read about hormone replacement, it doesn't seem like that is a sure fix. Psychological, seems like it is so complicated....
We have never been to any type of counseling. Honestly, we have no other issues. I mean he can be a slob sometimes, and I have to get on him to pick up his shoes, put his plate in the dishwasher, but nothing that would threaten our marriage.
I tried really hard this weekend to express my interest in him. I tried to flirt and tell him what a good husband he is. I guess I was trying to build up his ego. I don't know if it helped at all. I am to the point now that I am afraid to initiate anything because I don't want to put him in an awkward place. So I just have to wait and see if it helps him get in the mood and initiate on his own.
I think that 2-3 times a week plus the weekend may be setting you up for disappointment. Maybe just try setting up sensual experiences moving forward with little to no expectation on your part.. You know? maybe you can ask him for a massage, that your back hurts, and your calves....just to get into a more sensual place then you've been.?
Have a great week ~
Liz
Have a great week ~
Liz
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