ust over three years ago, I had a genital lump that was visually diagnosed as Herpes. I had gotten sick beforehand with what I presumed was tonsillitis ( I used to get it regularly). Around a week after the infection, the lump appeared. I was given anti virals, but did not get swabbed. It was one large red lump ( I think it was slightly ulcerated but I cant remember).
After this primary outbreak it never came back and I became more and more frustrated that it hadn't been 'confirmed' by testing. After struggling for months to find a doctor who would do a blood test, I managed to find a place that tested for HSV2 only. That blood test came back negative - I was told it could have been HSV1 or herpes Zoster (??) or absolutely nothing at all. There seems to be no one that will give me a HSV1 test to check.
In term of recurrences. I once got a tiny red dot that was confirmed as nothing by doctors. Another time, I got a pang on a patch of skin when I was in shower. It vanished by the next day so I couldn't even get any sort of confirmation as to what it was. I sometimes get sharp pains and zingy/pins and needles feelings on my lower back, legs, groin area, feet and even hands. I am not sure if that could be anything related to it. ( but I have been told by a doctor that it wasn't).
I am now in a sort of limbo where I do not know what measures to take in the future. Should I disclose this information to future partners? what 'risks' do I pose in terms of transmission? ( I was comforted by the figures on transmission for HSV1 but still confused). Internet research is a minefield! I read articles and journals telling me I don;t need to do a thing ( 90 percent of people have it etc..), then other forums that say disclosure is fundamental and 'I got hsv1 from genital transmission' stories that make me anxious all over again. Finally, I still don't have that 100% guarantee I have anything at all.
That is about all the information I have. I don't know if you have come across anything like this before - but I would appreciate any sort of medical/personal opinion or advise on the subject. I understand that no one can make any sort of diagnosis online, but at this juncture, anything would be of great service.