Genuinely feeling suicidal over this would like advice

[TeddyNug]

About 10 years ago I ended up being treated for NGU after a one off episode of oral that lasted about 3 minutes. I guessed I was incredibly unlucky to have caught this as a one off and after 6 months of agony (Reiters, Urethritis etc) I finally got 1g of Zithromax as a last resort as I nearly had a nervous breakdown as all tests came back neg and I ended up being told the symptoms were psychological yet I knew they were not and that it was something to do with that encounter. I nearly lost my job and my marriage in the end until I got treated.

It was all cleared up finally and has gone away since then.

Now 10 years later the symptoms have returned and my wife is also having episodes of discomfort. I've had no known other high risk encounters save about 4 months ago on a business trip where I drank until I blacked out. I was in a pretty seedy bar but I'm pretty sure nothing happened but I simply can't remember as I dont have enough memory to go on (I'm being treated for drink related issues but that's another matter). Now it's like Groundhog Day again. I feel ill, have night sweats, my urethra is itchy. I've had test after test after test and nothing has come back. So has my wife who has burning and itching. If I did get oral again (there's a chance but honestly I don't remember so who knows) how unlucky would I have to be to get NGU again from the only two high risk episodes I've ever had in my life? I'm starting to feel suicidal as I'm waiting for the Reiters etc to kick in again and for nobody to believe me again and I can't go back through it. I'm not even sure if I had a high risk event either so what can I say to anyone as a prompt to seek help or assistance? They're just going to think I'm nuts from guilt again.

I'm an alcoholic and I do get mild urethritis from time to time as my immune system is very low and I'm being treated for liver problems. Is this more likely to be a cause of urethritis than if another potential one off episode of oral happened? I also panicked a few days after the black out and sat in a bath of diluted disinfectant just in case which caused by urethra to sting. But would a chemical make the urethritis infectious to others? Some days I feel a crackling on the back of my eyes like when the Reiters kicked in the last time but no joint pain etc as yet. My wife gets burning a bit and has been tested but nothing shows up.

I live in the UK and they're generally not good at this sort of thing - if you don't have Chlamidia they aren't really interested in helping as they think that's the only STD. The last time this happened I had people telling me it was just guilt and remorse and that I was nuts and I ended up being counseled. But the symptoms were real and went away after the zithromax. I now can't believe I'm stupid enough to be back here again just because my drinking is out of control again.

I know I probably sound nuts so could you please give me some level headed advice on how I deal with this situation before I completely lose it again? What's the odds I have NSU again? How can I get people to take me seriously etc. Thanks.

[Life360_Dave]

Hi, urithritis is an infection inside the urethra and a main symptom would be a white puss discharge and burning while urinating. Also damage to the urethra from masturbating or rough sex can cause this.
It dosent take much to add psycological to this issue as once you suspect NSU constant touching and pulling your penis looking for things would certainly aggrevate the situation.
I would suggest to have a swab of the inside of your urethra and have a PCR test performed which looks for DNA for specific std.

[TeddyNug]

Thank you. No white puss but a very light white throth when trying really hard. They won't do a PCR test in the UK which is part of the problem. They just say you have symptoms and no chlamydia found - and if your lucky they'll blast you with Azithrmycin if they can't find anything else. But you basically have to claim a high risk activity to even get them to consider options which I can't claim. The only constant stopping me going mad is wife has symptoms and clearly isnt making them up. But yes I've caused lots of damage to my urethra with chemicals etc in my paranoia also.

[Life360_Dave]

exactly what symptoms do you have other than causing them yourself from pulling the poor guy

[TeddyNug]

Thanks Dave :-) A bit of humour was what I needed. Well a bit of burning at the end. A funny whitish throth that's well down the urethra. No discharge. Watery semen. I could well have infected myself pouring stuff like anti septic down there. Possibly eppiddymis but not sure. I'm more worried about wife's symptoms which are burning sensation, and lower pain.

[Life360_Dave]

Burning without a white discharge is not in line with symptoms of std,s or NGU

[TeddyNug]

Just to add. Wife has gone from not having any urinary probs in 10 years to having constant UTIs immediately after this situation occurring so looks like cause / effect to me.