Hello,
When I was out of mind and in a horrible place mentally, I did some out of character sexual things that I hate so much now.
I feel like I've returned to myself, but now I'm left with severe regret, disgust, sadness and anger over what I did in the past and who I did it with. I'm not sure I'll ever get over it. Plus, I live in fear of the news spreading.
I know it's my fault for doing it, but at the time I was too blind to clearly see and think about consequences. I ruined my body, present, future, and I'm filled with sadness because there's nothing I can ever do about it in all the world.
If anyone has ever dealt with this, how did you deal with it and forgive yourself or move on enough to enjoy life?