Fear of loved ones dying

[Lily21]

Hi all,
I'm new here but i thought id give this a try and see if anyone has any suggestions. I am 26 years old and as long as i can remember i have always STRESSED out about my familys well being. I know i can't control what happens but i see that now as i am getting older i stress about my family and loved ones dying on a daily basis. I know it might sound weird but you have no idea how bad this can get unless you go through what i go through everyday. It's getting to a point that i have panic attacks here n there. I am extremely close to my mother, father and sister and just the thought of them not being here scares me. I know this is a serious problem becuase i can't let go of it and i have tried over the years but the thought runs through my mind constantly. I was on anti depressants for a few months a couple years ago but decided to stop taking them. Does anyone have any suggestions? I want to enjoy the days i have with them right now and i dont want to waste time thinking of things that may or may not happen soon but i just can't stop on my own.

[griefforlife]

This is an old post but I see I'm not psycho. Others have these same fears. I have a37 year old son. I almost lost him 3 times when pregnant and when he was 4 from a misdiagnosed ruptured appendix that dr. thought was flue and if I hadn't known my son's pain levels I would not have taken a more aggressive approach the doctor. I love him so much; he's only real family I have since daughter older than he and two grandsons-hers-are back east and distant. I know when I'm around him I'm happy and i have concluded from my own sorrowful past that these are negative thoughts. Because I'm not suppose to be happy (childhood negative messages) and loving him making me happy goes against subconscious programming. Thus my mind  tells me he will die and want to say he should die when I know my heart would stop if he does. This is haunting and like a curse I cant seem to shake and oddly, I never have these thoughts about my daughter who treated me with contempt and worse or her sons who only called when they wanted something. I also fight this daily and it's my own private hell constantly living with this fear.

[Lilliesmommy23]

I'm in the same boat dealing with the same thing on a daily basis. I'm 26 as well, except it also includes my husband and daughter. I lost my brother 2 months ago so that makes it horrendous!!!

[Annabelle017]

This used to happen to me, it still does but not before bed because now while lying in bed trying to sleep and a disturbing thought comes into my head I repeatedly remind myself that now is not the time to worry about it and I will think about it tomorrow. It works really well for me, however I still have trouvle through the day.

[Annabelle017]

But wont the memories just hurt? I think the memories will hurt so bad :(

[Annabelle017]

Thank you for this!!

[Ian444]

GOD loves you.  That is enough.....may not feel like it, but it is!  Jesus said not to worry in this life....HE said "which of you by worrying can add any inches to his life?....Or which of you through worry can change one hair white or black?"...the point being that worry and stress are fruitless and serve no purpose other than a trick or tactic by the dark one to destroy your mind.  Christ through the Apostle Paul said the "devil goes about as a roaring lion seeking who he can devour."  Don't let this be you!
You have the strength to get on your knees and Pray this Prayer...."LORD Jesus, I know you died for me, I know you rose again.  Through this truth allow me to live in Joy.  In Your Name, Amen"

God Bless...I will be Praying for you