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To Shaz

I hope respite went well.  I thought I better type out that stuff I promised I would before I forgot again.

1.  Acknowledge a feeling
2.  Identify the feeling
3.  What's the feeling about.
     Child self                                             Adult self
     Reacts (I need) -past  (Intense)              Responds (I want/ would like) -now (calm)
     What, when, where, who, how
     I feel
4.  Validate the feeling (permission)
     It's OK to feel x, y, z
5.  Practical intervention
6.  Integration
7.  Growth
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Its good you went for the run, blisters are so sore i can't run i am so unfit and i won't walk anywhere because of the panic attacks, the gym i could manage but because i have been so low lately i haven't had the energy.
I am anxious today i hate it, less depression but so anxious i am hyper i have too be doing something all the time, then when i am depressed i can hardly move, even though i am hyper my body still doesn't have much energy just my mind is going all the time.
I don't like being touched by adults but i love hugging my children so i don't understand i am totally uncomfortable if an adult hugged me or touched me when talking even my arm or hand its weird.
I hate the easter holidays they are long and i hate when it quiet and the children are out of their routine, we are going to visit my partners aunt tomorrow its a long drive it doesn't help my argraphobia but anyway i need to push it and do it.
I hope you had a good day mine was quiet but at least less depression for now anyway.
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I remember when I was first depressed I would feel absolutely buggered just driving to the gym.  Workouts weren't really happening.
I probably wouldn't mind going again (to tone up and get fit) but it is inconvenient (30 minute drive) and I can't afford it.  I'm sure it would help my self-confidence, etc though.
I hate it when your mind races like that.  There are just way to many thoughts, etc.
Maybe your kids are just so non-threatening.  My T said that the touch thing was due to my physical body being equivalent to people's psychological defenses.  Does that make sense?  Guess my psychological defenses were/ are just way too primitive at times.
My T use to have blankets in her office for patients/ clients.  I use to hate that too.  Probably not a huge fan of nurturing or trusting another individual to nurture me.  It felt too uncomfortable, too unsafe.
Holidays for me can be stressful.  Most health professionals are away which can reinforce my losses but also leave me feeling isolated and alone and like I have to cope with everything.  It feels a little overwhelming at times.  Plus it seems to make the time go by a lot slower.
The highlight of my day at the moment is MacGyver.  That's pretty sad but it seems to break the day up for me (it's on at 2 pm).  Usually there will be something on TV in the evening.  Survivor starts this Thursday night.  It all helps just a little.  This is why I need therapy so badly.  Currently I am using the internet and TV to distract myself and to help me cope.  I can't see my GP doing anything tomorrow.

Once you do it you will likely feel a sense of achievement.  I have quite bad ocd.  When I manage to do something that breaks that behavior even a little I feel a sense of accomplishment.

Less depression more feeling has got to be good, right?  I'm not convinced because feeling is painful but it sounds as though it is likely to be healthier.
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I hope it goes well at with your doctor today,  hope you can get some answers.
I went to my partners aunts today it was a stressful today its far away i drove up and panicked so many times so my partner drove back.
The depression is on its way back i can feel it even today my partner says he can see me going away again in my mind i am quiet and irritable when spoken too. So the more feeling bit didn't last long, the police are calling tomorrow to speak about the incident i reported to them so maybe thats why i am shutting down again. I also have respite tomorrow evening and home for a while on Thursday then back on Thursday night i am anxious i panicked last time which still scares me.
You mentioned ocd i also have ocd i have had it for about 14yrs and when i am really anxious i have alot more rituals and it drives me mad it holds me back alot getting out of the house and going to bed is a nightmare i have so much i have to do.
Hugging my children is so relaxing, not adults though i feel safe with my children.
I hope it goes well with you at the doctors, take care.
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It didn't go so well with my doctor.  I was feeling a bit frustrated.  In the end nothing has changed except I am less likely to see my GP as regularly.  He did give me antibiotics, etc for an infected finger.  Fantastic!  Not!
I like doing things.  Going from a to b but I hate spending too long at a destination.  I'm not a smell the roses sort of person.  I find it creates way too much anxiety.
Withdrawing is a good way to protect oneself.  Creating distance can feel helpful.  Not very adaptive though.  I'm probably a bit like that at the moment.  I'm definitely moody and irritable but I then retreat to a quiet place and don't want to communicate.
The last time you went to respite is in the past.  This is a new time and a new opportunity.
My ocd is worse at the moment.  Have become more stressed and more anxious.  I don't have a truck load of things I do just have stupid number or word patterns and need somethings to feel a particular way.  It's all time consuming.
80 minutes is probably the longest I'm willing to admit to taking to do something.  Usually it isn't quite that long but can be repeated heaps throughout the day.

I hope you have a good day and enjoy respite.
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I'm sorry it didn't go so well at the doctors i find i get frustrated with doctors too they don't  listen because i have anxiety i feel they don't take me seriously and i leave feeling not listened too, sometimes i feel like that with everyone.
I went for a drive today because the weather was nice we live near a forest park and we are able to drive over the mountain it was lovely i get anxious but i needed to get out, i am going to respite at 8 or 9pm i rang them and told them i wanted to spend the day with my children she said thats fine then i will stay until about 2pm tomorrow and then back tomorrow night i would feel as if i let my social worker down if i didn't go as she went to the bother of getting me the place.
With my ocd its all about things feeling right too if it doesn't feel right its not safe its frustrating as well and when i am away from home it gets worse as well.
I feel the same way about staying in the one place too i get restless which is why respite is hard but i feel i need to do this as i am not prepared to try the medication.
I need to go and pack for respite but i am anxious but anyway i will go.
I hope you have a good day.
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Me too.  I had one T who got it though and that felt really good.  You know when you don't have to explain everything and educate the professionals.
My GP is usually very good.  I've just been struggling for such a long time that he becomes an easy target.  He is about the only one, besides my last T, who has supported me.  I've been feeling bad so I guess it just translated into my interactions with him.

If you truly feel well and not in need of the respite then I'm sure it's no bother.  Your social worker will understand.

That drive did sound lovely.  We also live not too far away from a forest park.  Sounds slightly different though.  Ours is more walking trails and mountain bike tracks.  I guess it has no mountain either.  =)  There are some of those not too far from as well.
I kind of live in a lakes district so there are quite a few lakes around.
Is it school holidays there as well?

I'm sure it only gets worse because we get more anxious.

It's quite a nice day today.  The sun's shining even though it is a little cool.

Respite should help you to maintain a sense of stability.  Enjoy it.
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