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[inneedofhelp82]

Just wanted to welcome you back, how was your journey home? I hope all is well with you, talk soon.

[inneedofhelp82]

Yeah i know what world he means but a hi wouldn't have killed him, anyway i'm not too stressed about it which is good.
What is wrong with the cat?
I didn't sleep so good i spent all day yesterday in another world, i find it very scary i didn't feel real and i didn't feel that the people around me were real i thought i was going mad, i kept thinking i was going to disappear, have you ever felt like that.
I took the baby for a while this morning so my daughter could sleep but she has the baby now and i am going to town, my social worker is also supposed to call today but you never know with her.
I hope you have a good day, take care.

[Jaquta]

Just remember that that world is only in regards to therapy.  Outside of therapy they have a right to be themselves.  Outside of therapy you aren't really in their world (or are only as much as they allow you to be).  It all gets crazy difficult to understand.

If it is too much for you then can't you insist that your daughter take more care/ responsibility for her??

I had to take the cat to the vet today.  Mum is not pleased.  She thought that Dad should have drowned it or banged it on the head.

[inneedofhelp82]

I feel my therapist is listening more, i think now that he knows exactly what is wrong with me, so he knows what to do now. He asked me to allow him into to my world because he knows i haven't put him there, only i am in my world, he said he can help me and he is trying to understand me but he said i need to put him in my world so that i don't feel so alone, i said i will. Then i met him in town yesterday and he never spoke so i thought so much for me letting you in my world, but i am trying to not feel so much rejected by him, i am trying to look at it a different way like he told me to do, my son was there so was his daughter so neither of us were in a position to speak.
I am anxious about the responsibilty of the new baby when my daughter goes back to school, some days i can hardly get myself out of bed and my partner isn't willing to help with the baby but i will see how it goes. I don't cope well with stress though.
I hope all is well with you and i hope you have a good day. Take care

[Jaquta]

My review isn't for another week so aren't stressing about that now.  Maybe later in the week.  =)
The course will be better if you want to do it and are able to do it.  Looking after your granddaughter will be an added challenge.  I hope all is still well there.
It's good if you feel that therapy is helping.  That will help you connect better with your T.

I hope you have a great day too.

[inneedofhelp82]

I,m ok, therapy seems to be helping at last, he actually knows what he is doing for a change, and i feel he understands me more i don't have to try and tell him as much. We are working on emotions, its helping a bit.
Its good your GP left you an e-mail it shows he cares. Are you nervous about the review?
I got accepted for my course i thought i had messed it up at the interview, but they accepted me, i'm not sure now if i want to do it or not.
Hope you are well, have a good day, take care.

[Jaquta]

Hi.  My flight home was good.  A bit rough coming in to land but otherwise pretty perfect.
I didn't get any sleep that night so was feeling pretty shattered.  Is good to be home.
My GP left me a short e-mail, on the day I arrived, so that left me feeling ?confused.
It rehashed a lot of the negative feelings for me which I had been hiding well.  I thought it was nice that he took the time and made the effort to respond (even if it would have been better during all the stress and drama).

Thanks for asking.  How are you doing?