OMG ITS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I HAVE BEEN ON HERE!!! Well i do have to say I do miss everyone who has been on here since I was on here looking for help and needing guidance for when i first started getting clean. I am SO HAPPY to say that on the 24th of this month I will be about 15 months clean I believe...YEA OVER A YEAR YAYYYY! =))))))).
The best part too is that I don't have to lie to myself anymore, no more scrounging up money I dont have or stealing it or doing illegal acts that could hurt someone to get money for my drugs. I have completely turned my life around, idk if anyone can remember me having a very hard time with these bunches of Payday loans I had but about a month ago I FINALLY paid my last one off!!!! I have turned my addiction into a hobbie of building computers and playing on mine....saved so much money not having to pay fro drugs, I could offered to build me a high performance computer (yes Im a nerd lol). I also had a a wonder, a miracle and had my first son who was born on January 20th 2011, His name is Landon Allen Jerue-Bowman and he is just my precious little man. He is going to be very tall lol he is already over 25 inches and just barely past two months! I have been loving the parent life and how much joy and happiness he brings me, it is all just sureal. My band is doing better then ever, having already professionally recorded our first demo and playing with big name bands from around the country. I believe we get about 10 show offers a month, which is really good especially since we have been a band not even for a year yet.
So thats how I'm doing, I hope someone can read this and get some inspiration on how it is on the other side and can use this to bring them that much closer to getting clean and getting some good clean time under there belt. Just remember, its not the end of the your world, BUT it can be if you keep using! Love everyone and I will ttyl. BYEEEEEEE <3